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Ashley Masochistic


Last Updated: 12/14/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 17
Sign: Aries

City: Under your bed
State: Rhode Island
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/4/2006
April 10, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  confused
Category: Blogging
so my life is at a stand still atm... just as everything got better it took a turn for the worst...I currently have the hearts of three guys and i have strong feelings for them all i dont know who to choose =[... i love all of them for different reasons..im so use to being told what to do and who to love and i just dont know what to do...someone help me. on the upside all this stress has caused a lift in my creativity ive done 5 sketches that i couldnt ever do before and i wrote a song and two poems i might post afterwards...i can not wait to leave the country in 44 days. im not going to want to come home. If i should even call this a home. i believe home should be where you are most comfortable at and where you feel safest and loved by the people around you and that certainly isnt here. i want to leave this place for good and never look back. at all the misery and lies and useless family members that hate me. =/ is there even a point to my exsistance i dont know who i am anymore. all of my memories in this place seem to be dissappearing as everyone i care about drifts away. Old hangouts continue to be destroyed along with the memories that are with them.  im starting to think that soon they will barely exsist in my memory. i feel cold and dead like a walking porcelain doll. if anyone reads this it may very well be my last blog entry. i just dont know what im going to do anymore =[.
Someone help me..i need real adivise from someone.. not "its okay." or "i love you please be happy." o and the ever popular "im sorry" real advise please =[.
And another thing im going to be looking for a new place to live. If you want a room mate let me know and ill be glad to help out with rent and bills =}                            
XoXoxO,
your bloody valentine ..
Currently listening:
Lies for the Liars
By The Used
Release date: 2007-05-22
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Kyle Renouf

 
well...uh i guess real advice would to go for what you think is best liek theres no true answer for things like that you just kinda have to go with it and hope for the best and when things dotn work out you either try harder or u restart for the situation with the three guys -caugh caugh- uhm well ya just go with what you honestly think will make u happy and not what everyone else sais not even what i say jsut do what u think u want...oh and ill gladly have a roommate:P muah <3 je t'aime 44:)
 
Posted by қყ૮૯ on April 10, 2009 - Friday - 8:21 PM
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Jason aka Gender
Jason Dumas

 
As kyle said in so many small words lol, the choice in life is yours alone what u choose will be the path of your life not someone elses. Dont listen to us listen to your heart an what it thinks you should do in life. I dont have many good friends anymore they ever got killed or moved away the only ones left are Craig and Justin.....so i know the feeling of losing something. What u have to do is try to remember the good times an just move on. I know it sounds cruel but if u hang in the past your just hurting yourself, most friends move on an thus u need to also. An dont worry u will meet up with them or talk to them later in life, i always meet up with old friends etc ya know. As to who u wanna be with there is no real answer that anyone can help u with on that, u know i am here for u no matter what to talk to or want not. I will try my hardest to help u in any way i can, but who u choose if ur choice in life not someone elses, look deep inside yourself you need to choose between the guys u like or if that doesnt work maybe not choose either of them, sometimes life throws u a fork in the road its a hard choice but not much u can do other then try one side an hope it works out. An i already told u before if u ever need a place to live my house has spare bedrooms, till u find a permament home of if u wanna stay the choice is urs.. just dont mind the dumb ass dog in the house or the crazy cat who cant decide if its a bird or cat :P

What ever u choose in life is your life to choose, not someone elses just know all your friends including me will like u still no matter what hun, just some of us will be hurtin more then others if something happens to you.


P.s.
if by any chance something happens to u, i might flip out bad (i hate adhd) but hell it helps me in the end to get even with people :P
 
Posted by Jason aka Gender on April 12, 2009 - Sunday - 1:37 AM
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Ten Mile (Ten)
Alexander Mason

 
I agree with kyle a bit there. as for the guys, i'd say choose the one that's going to treat you well and stick with you through anything. and sometimes life, like it or not, IS hard. i'd say when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. shit happens, you just have to deal with it. stress happens, take some asprine and deal with it. it's what i did. also, talk to someone who cares about you. this goes back to choosing the right guy.
choose one that will care about you and you can talk to about anything
 
Posted by Ten Mile (Ten) on April 12, 2009 - Sunday - 1:38 AM
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Jason aka Gender
Jason Dumas

 
well at least u got to the point lol, still alex u need to think the same way man u got two sides to it ya know.. u got one girl on one side an another on the other ur in the same boat :P
 
Posted by Jason aka Gender on April 20, 2009 - Monday - 2:35 AM
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