So this weekend I invited my parents over the house for dinner on saturday they told me that they would let me know. NBD, so over the past almost 3+ years my relationship with my parent has gone down hill and well it was to the point where I just don't care if the relationship gets fixed, I get the feeling that they only want to see me for my kids and that I am just a reminder of the mistake that made them have to get married. I am not sure if that is the case but it feels that way.

I feel no matter how much I talk to them or how much I try to explain how I feel they just don't give a $!t. I have been yelled and put down in front of my son. I am suppose to forgive that and change to fit them. I have talked to a few people who have had problems with my parents and what they say is that if you want the relationship to work you have to become more or less numb to their actions and don't let them get to you. I can't seem to do that.

I am not sure how to deal with this so I am taking the best route I know Distance. The big problem with that is the people I want to see I am not sure they want to see me.

But I am going to do my best to deal with this.

One thing I do have to say is the relationship seemed to get better when my dad was working or had something to occupy his time during the day. Now he is not working and I am just waiting to see if I get an email or call blasting me for my choices.

Bye for now