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Jaclyn Johnson Romero


Last Updated: 3/18/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 28
Sign: Scorpio

City: MARICOPA
State: Arizona
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/6/2006
Sunday, May 27, 2007 

Current mood:  grateful
Category: Blogging

Tonight, I went back to the gym for the first time in months. It was one of the first "alone" times I've had since Brooklyn was born 4 weeks ago. I wasn't sad or worried to leave her, I knew she was safe with her daddy ;)

When I was leaving the gym, I caught myself saying "We did it! We went to the gym!"... Then I realized what I had said... "WE"??? No! I am a ME, not a WE! In that moment I realized that becoming a mother doesn't mean giving up my identity.

In the past 4 weeks, there have been moments, and sometimes days, where I felt lost and confused. I understand now why I felt that way. I was allowing my life to end while Brooklyn's life began.

I'm choosing to separate myself from my daughter.

I'm choosing to be an individual.

I'm choosing to not make choices for my daughter, but make the choices for myself that will in turn be the example I want to set for the beautiful little peanut I brought into this world.

I choose NOT to feel disempowered  for my realization that I was allowing my life to end. I CHOOSE to feel empowered for my realization that I am an individual who is also a mother. I am enlightened ;)

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Jenny
Jenny Shick

 
I love this! What beautiful words Jaclyn. I will remembers those for myself also. I'm glad you have already learned this and are applying it to your life now. Everyone who is a mother should read this!

I'm so happy for you and am glad all are doing well!
 
Posted by Jenny on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 6:05 AM
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meggan :)
meggan wood

 
Good for you, girl. Don't ever forget who you are and what you want!
 
Posted by meggan :) on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:21 PM
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Victoria

 
Wow Jaclyn! Kudos on getting back to the gym! I had a c-section so I could barely walk for like 5 weeks, but it is so nice to have that alone moment, and that ME not WE moment too. I am so happy that you are coming to this so quickly. It's so hard when you're nursing and stuck to that little one every two hours, but you obviously are taking it in stride. I have a lot of trouble feeling myself again, but mostly I think it's because I can't find any clothes to fit me that I actually like. And I mostly just hang out with Dave and Farrah. You have inspired me to call up my friends, and find somewhere to go without the monkey! You are already such a good momma Jax. Much Love!!!!!!!!!! Aunt Vikki
 
Posted by Victoria on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:22 PM
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*♥*APRIL*♥*

 
Hi Jacyln,

This is a great blog. I'm actually trying to do the same thing... seperating my life from my kids. Anyone who knows me knows that my children are what I'm all about, but I'm beginning to learn that I am allowed to have fun and be my own person... That "going out with friends" doesn't mean that I am neglecting my children, it just means that Mom isn't neglecting herself anymore. I'm proud to say I'm going back to college next month, also. ;-) I just hate that it has taken 10 years and 3 children to start learning this... I'm very glad that you have come to this realization so early...

Congradulations again... You're in for an experience that will NEVER get boring! ;-)

~April~
 
Posted by *♥*APRIL*♥* on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:22 PM
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Wifey & mini K.C.
Christina Bouldin

 
Jaclyn,

I love how you were able to put that into words and I thank you for sharing that with all of us. I'm sure so many women go through that once they have a baby and you are truely an inspiration.

Thank you.
Christina
 
Posted by Wifey & mini K.C. on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:22 PM
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Erika

 
Thank you for writing this. I fight these feelings myself from time to time. Its work in progress.
 
Posted by Erika on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:22 PM
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Sommer is on Facebook

 
You certainly are enlightened! I love the word choose... And I love that you are sharing this with us. It's an important step that I think all parents have to take, and you already did it!! Take care of yourself so you can take care of the peanut! :)
 
Posted by Sommer is on Facebook on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:23 PM
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Carrie
Carrie Bliss

 
Beautiful-we should all rember that..i now for me that is soo hard to separate the me being mom to the just me...
 
Posted by Carrie on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:23 PM
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Hot Wheels

 
You my dear a WONDERFUL! :-) Beautifully put hon!! :-) Talk ta ya later.... have a great day!
Love, hug and giggles!
Shawnna
 
Posted by Hot Wheels on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:23 PM
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Jenae

 
And it's for all of those reasons and more that you make a wonderful mother and will be such a positive role model and influence for that beautiful daughter of yours!
 
Posted by Jenae on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:23 PM
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50GirL

 
My Goodness Jaclyn! The Growth of Jaclyn! I appreciate You being 'out here' and having chose to do that show... you know, that show... where You were Learning, Growing & Challenging what was to be YOUR LIFE! Thanks be to God... And so poignant of a writing this entry is. YOU ARE MORE than a MOMMY... YOU GO GIRL! I am so very HaPpY for YOU & for YOU Sharing Your Journey in this thang we call "LIFE!" You are a Fine Example for so many others in so many wayz!

Much PeaCe to YOU!

Love & God's Continued Blessings,

Roxanne
 
Posted by 50GirL on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:24 PM
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Sarah
Sarah Reitmayer

 
Congratulations on choosing YOU!

<3
 
Posted by Sarah on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 10:24 PM
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♥♥Carita♥♥ (aka Creet!)

 
Wish I would have known that almost 13 years ago. Wow what empowerment! Thanks for sharing!
 
Posted by ♥♥Carita♥♥ (aka Creet!) on Monday, May 28, 2007 - 12:12 AM
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