I always here people talking about hte signs of getting old.  Your hearing going, hair turning gray, or joints aching more then they did when you were young.  But today I raelized something.  All of this things are signs you are getting old to the outside world.  I realized this afternoon that I am getting old and it scares me and really saddened me.  Not for the noraml reasons mind you. I was doing some thinking this afternoon about possibilities and scenarios for life and one inparticular.  The scenario isnt important.  Anyway, I starting thinking of my grandparents in particular my grandfather.  He isnt in the best of health right now.  ANd last time I was in town I dropped by to see him.  He wasnt the man I remember and that saddened me.  I have this image of the man that I grew up with.  That is the image that I want to remember.  The man that was full of life and always had a smile on his face.  The man that was resourceful, creative and always had a random wood project going on weither is was a doll case for my sister, a wind chime or a bird house.  It was always something.  THe most recent time that I saw him he wasnt that man.  He was an old man that coudlnt do much for himself and it scares me that this is how I am going to remember him and I dont want that.  I want to remember the younger man.  I want that to be my lasting image.  But it might not be.  Why?  Because I got old.  Your perception of people changes.  Those poeple that were once infalable in your eyes become falable.  Those people that always seemed so big and full of life age also.  All of a sudden they arent so big.  All of a sudden there is less awe involved with how you view them.  That is the sign that you have gotten older.  Not hte gray hair.