( ok, 've spent the last few months on "CafeMOM", so if you don't understand the lingo, DS means dear son, DH means dear husband, DD means dear daughter..and I think thatsall the CM slang I through in here..LOL!!)

( Originally written Dcember 29th, 2008)

My contractions  kicked in around 5 pm on December 21st, quickly escalating to 2-5  minutes apart. The Tuesday before, Doc stopped mycontractions via 3 shots (which didn't work!) and 2 bags of Magnesium.I was 35.5 weeks that day...and boy was I ticked!!!

Doc said thatafter 36 weeks, they will not stop contractions, but will go ahead withrepeat c-section. My DD ( age 7 1/2) was born via emergency c-section,and I have a scar from my Belly Button to my Pelvic bone ( up &Down). Because of that cut, I wasn't able to find a doctor within 45miles who would agree to a Vbac. 

Sooo, after going Back to the hospital the next Sunday Evening  (around 8 pm) withcontractions gradually going through the roof  ( that reminds me, I have to punch my husband for cracking stupid jokes wjile I was in Labor..), the Nurses eventually graced me with Demerol to ease the pain of the contractions ( Thank God!).

At 4 am, Nurse came in and prepped me for a 6 am c-section. I'd only dilated to 1cm..yet my contractions were off the Richter SCALE!

So around 6:10, the Nurse came in and and walked us to the OR. 

Heres an even longer story of How I basically had a Panic attack on the Operating Table...my husband tells it better though!!

Since my DD wasan Emergency Section, I was not awake for  her delivery. So when they told me that they were going to numb me, I was like "O.K., and the nI go to sleep, right?" ..The Anesthesiologist was like "No, you'll just be numb, but you'll be able to see your baby being born".

So theygave me the Spinal, which really started to freak me out even more..but I was cool with it..I was trying to play it cool. Then my husband came in and sat next to me. I remember feeling pushing and tugging, no pain though.

But I think that just the thought and the sound , andhearing the noise of that Hot Slicer.....just started to really freak me out. I kept telling my husband " Just talk to me o.k., keep talking to me..."

I must've been panicking more than that because the A.N. politely asked me if it would be o.k. if He strapped my arms down!!! LOL..

Then I felt the doctors pushing on my rib cage,which I knew form watching Discovery Health meant they were working my Babys' Body out. That was the clearest moment of the whole procedure.

 They said "Are you ready to see your Baby?".. And then they held up the most beautiful baby boy I'd ever seen in my life.

Not even the Ultrasound 4D photos did this little man justice. He was absoulutely stunning!!

My husband and I both just kind of gasped in shock.We thought we had him pegged from his Ultrasound, but God knows how to make you appreciate his Creativity!!

My son  whimpered once, then coughed and that was it.

When they took him to the checking station , I started asking " Is he o.k.?Are his lungs ok?, Hes' not crying, is He o.k.?" The Pediatrician said" Hes' absolutley fine. His breathing is perfect, and Hes' just laying here looking around. As a matter of Fact, since I heard you all were looking for an "M" name, you should call him Mellow!!!"

Then they took him to get cleaned and weighed. I told Marcus to go with Him, I'd be o.k.

Butthen the Panic came back hard as I tried to take my mind off the fact that they were sewing me back up. I remember trying to memorize the names of all the nurses and attendants and doctors. I remember trying to thank everyone one by one, anything to keep from freaking out. The last thing I remember is telling a nurse that I was trying to fly away(lol), to find a happy place, I think I started passing out, because myhead felt like it was floating.

Then the A,N. said ,"Oh, Mrs. Moore, how about I give you a little something for your nerves?"

And that was really the last unfoggy thing I remember about that Monday!!!

That said, Maxwell Major Benjamin ( yes, 2 middle names!) was Born on December 22nd, 2008 at 6:25 am.

6lbs 0 oz, 18 1/2 inches long.

The most beautiful creature I've laid eyes on since May 21st, 2001, when I laid eyes on my Daughter, Majesty Grace,

I told my Husband, 'We may not have all the answers when it comes to being married ( 9 years in March!), but we sure know how to make Beautiful Babies!" 

I 'll post more pics soon. Thank you all for your prayers and support!!

And as always, thanks for Listening!!

Monika Bourgeois

singer/songwriter/supermom of 2.