Depression is a serious problem and still so many people don't understand it. Sometimes no matter what you do you are not going to find the happiness you are looking for. Find your strength. No person or thing is going to change how you feel on the inside. You have to fight that battle your self.

People change so much as years go by. I have made the decisions to not be friends with many of the people I was in high school and the first couple years afterward. Because I don't really want to be friends, doesn't mean that i stop caring about those people all together as a person. I still want those people to thrive and have well being.

 I worry about some people. The people I thought would do the best in life seem to be crumbling. Some of the people I tried to find strength in can't help them selves. I don't know what to do. Please take care of your self and make the decisions to better your life, Find love and comfort in the right places.


I struggled for a very long time. I still struggle to day with depression. It tares friendships and relationships apart.  I tried to rely on someone else to be my rock and protect me from my self and my past. You fight with your self and no matter how much love and compassion is thrown your way, you feel numb and unwanted. Sometimes you will do anything to just feel something from someone.