I was on a side street. At a park, there was a fair going on. I was there with Spark and my cousin Ash, and some old friends from way back in the day. It was a really pretty day to be spending outside, I can still feel how the sun felt on my skin. I was getting ice cream from my favorite ice cream stand with Ash, Spark was back where we were all chillin, in front of an old red brick building. We were in a place I was unfamiliar with, I had never really been to that part of town- where Spark was. We walked back because I had told Ash that I was wondering what spark and the baby were doing. It seemed like we walked blocks and blocks and that red brick building was no where to be found, just as my hope started to slip, there it was. Relieved I ran up to Spark and said Where is she? He said right here, I looked down to where he was pointing and there she was. The most beautiful baby I had ever seen, just as I went to pick her up, My friend Tiffany came by and grabbed her carriage and took off up this hillside. I looked at spark and Ash and said "no fuck this, where the hell does she think she is going?" I took off running after her, and Spark yelled "hurry up and get back so we can get home to pack" "I will" I replied. I couldnt see where she had took off with the baby, So I went into the only building I thought she could have gone. It was again, an older building, This time blue, and with side panels, not brick. As I opened the door to the front of this place it squeaked, right away I could hear a bunch of people talking. I started walking down this very long hallway, which looked as if I would never reach the end of it. To the right there was the first room, I peeked in and there were just a bunch of kids in there yabbin to each other playing cards. As I sped forward I started to smell a strong aroma of marijuana. This to me, had to be some type of college house. I came to a place in the hallway where I could turn left or right, I went left. Followed the smell which led to another room, thats when I seen my friend Stew walking toward me, I looked at him and said "omg hey! Have you seen Tiffany with a baby?" He said "no" and stumbled pass me. I then put pep in my step and as I was walking away I heard something small hit the floor, I looked down and there was a tiny white pill. I picked it up, and popped it in my mouth, I guess believing that it was tylenol I hadnt taken earlier. As I reached the next room I heard a toilet flush and my friend Erin cracked the door and I could see her in there doing drugs, she had crushed a tiny white pill under her credit card, pulled a writing pen out of her pocket, carefully twisted the top off, and removed the ink tube. Bending over the sink she inhaled the white line of the crushed pill right up her nostril. Anger absorbed in my whole body and I flung the door open and barked " I havnt seen you in years, your fucking doing drugs again? Why dont you come see my damn daughter sometime!" Slamming the door behind me I started to run, back down the small hallway, taking a right to the big hallway, and out the doors. Where the shit is Tiff I kept saying in my head. She could not have gone far. As I looked up I seen a police car drive by as it passed the intersection. I could already feel my heart race as I noticed there was a kid dressed in all black pointing a gun at the car. POW POW POW I heard it fire. I panicked. I dont want him to see me, I hope he doesnt come this way, I started to run the other direction. I tried. I was trying so hard to lift my legs. I can still see the pavement below me and feel the heat on the bottom of my sandal. I could barely walk, I was in running position, but in VERY slow motion. OMG, that pill I took. I reached the intersection to the left of where the shooting was, trying to keep moving, with my legs which felt as heavy as solid blocks of iron. I turned around quickly hearing two men talking behind me, One was really large, the other wearing all black. They looked me straight in the eyes and I snapped my head back to the front immediately. I was already crying inside. I could feel my chest getting heavy, working up to my throat. A bar! I turned right and walked in this musky old bar, I could hear the footsteps behind me, the men following me into the bar. I then said "Shit I forgot my wallet".. Turned around Smiled at the men. As I was stepping out of the bar, I remembered that sparks wallet was in my back pocket, I had used his money to buy my ice cream with Ash. FUCK I thought. Hurried, able to walk faster at this point I went into the next bar, the two men following me, trailing very close behind me now. The man in the black outfit was for sure the man who was shooting his gun a few blocks back, Panicking I just walked up to the bar, looked at the younger man, with long blonde hair and a missing tooth I mumbled, "HELP ME CALL THE POLICE HURRY", He looks at me smiled and said "two hot dogs with ketchup and mustard, anything to drink?" I said "coke, with cherry" He replied "we dont have cherry coke" I heard the two men talking to several of the other people in the bar, I turned around and the bigger one, smiled at me, I walked to the end of he bar where the blonde bartender met me, I asked if he already called the police, "Its no use" he smiled. As I was asking why I heard a guy yell, "GET DOWN" three other girls at the bar got down, one rolling her eyes saying "are you kidding me, come on guys ugh" (as if this were an everyday thing) A really obese and yet extremely tough looking, short haired blonde lady walked up to the crouched down girls and grabbed that girls arm and pulled her up, "what are you doing, dont be a pussy, stand up" I looked down at her heels, hoping she wouldnt pull me up, I heard crackling and then shattering glass came flying into the bar. I whispered to the other girl on the floor beside me, "How do we get out of here?" she told me that she would try and help me, but not to run, because they would catch me and shoot me in cold blood. Thats when I felt the first real tear drop slide down my cheek. I was in big trouble, and I had no way to get out, and Tiffany was no where to be found.
I felt like I had been sitting in that bar for hours, the two men would not let me leave, they just kept staring at me with dark threatening eyes. I remember looking out the now open window from the gun shot, and seeing the sun set behind the old red brick building that was pretty far away from me. Thats when I thought about Spark. Turning my head looking out the door I came into, I wished and hope with all my might that I would see our red jeep pull up and Spark would save me from all these mad crazy people. My thought was interrupted by a firm grip and a harsh pull from the big guy. I was then shoved out the back door, the girl who gave me her word followed. They walked me behind the bar through this little itty bitty alley, the big guy could hardly fit.
I followed them, thinking about running, but remembering what she said, I traced behind up the creaky steps onto a porch with a swing, and right into the front door. There on the hideous flowery couch, sat the obese woman. The two men left the house and she laughed and said "they know this place all to well, all the streets and such" Confused, I didnt bother trying to understand what she meant by that statement. She walked up to me, and punched me right in the face. The other girl then sat down at the small round kitchen table. I could feel my nose throbbing, and like a little rag doll and just layed there on the floor looking up at this crazy bitch. Then she lifted up her shirt, against her huge white belly roll, tucked into her stretchy pants was a silver gun. She pointed it at the girl, and the girl said " I didnt do anything wrong, I did everything you told me to" The women cocked the gun and the girl pointing her finger at me said "SHE STOLE THINGS FROM ME AT THE BAR" The gun then was directed at me, and she signaled me to stand up. Thats when I went numb. I could no longer feel my legs, My brain was so exhausted from thinking, I just wanted to be with spark and hold my baby. She walked straight up to me poisoning me with her evil eyes the whole time, she asked me my name, " I said Stacey" She gave me a very unconvinced look, turned the gun side ways and showed me on this lil graph thing two missing slots before on the dial, and then three solid slots that were next in line. She then said very sternly "Does this set your mind straight enough to tell me the truth?" I knew those solid slots that were coming up next were going to pierce through my body if I didnt answer correctly "addison" I said. She held the gun on my forehead, I could feel how cold it was, I couldnt hold it in anymore. This is what this feels like, when you seen this stuff on TV, even hearing "true stories" of people held at gun point, you dont ever imagine it feeling like this. I was going to die, my life could be taken at any given second, in the hands of this crazy obese woman who obviously had no care in the world. I then blurted out "please dont kill me, please, I just had a baby and I want to see her and hold her, I love my boyfriend and my family, please please please dont kill me, Ill do anything." She laughed and looked at the other girl and said "anything?" I said "Yes Ill give you bank account information, my boyfriends wallet, everything" I heard Sparks sisters answering machine going off in my ear, from my bluetooth. "hey its me leave a message" numbly I said, "Please dont kill me" crying harder, begging for my life "Please dont do this" The women looked at me turned the gun and shot the mexican girl right in the head.
I couldnt swallow, I couldnt move. I was next, she knew that girl and killed her right there, why would she let me go? Her phone rang, she walked over to the phone, pointing the gun at me the whole time. She started writing something down, and I did it. I just took off running. I ran, and again, my legs felt heavy, I went to the following block and staggered behind another building, looking across the street I seen subway. I couldnt run that way, it was the way to the old red brick building. The sun had set, it had been hours since I was missing, I then wondered if Spark was still alive, if Tiffany had brought the baby back, and if there were wondering what happened to me. I wiped my bloody nose with my shirt, and crawled up the small hill between the building in the wet grass. I looked to the direction in which our house was, on the other side of town, and I began to crawl. I have never felt that numb or scared in my life, and I had lived through some fucked up shit.
Then I woke up. I layed there putting my hands to my head, I was sweating, I was still so terrified from my dream that I couldnt even move, I really was numb all over.Warm in my bed I seriously took a minute to thank the world for my life, my family, and realized how it really is a gift to wake up each morning. How genuinely happy I was that all that craziness was just a dream. I feel for those who really have faced situations like that in real life.
Anyway, I turned my computer on and started blogging right away so I wouldnt forget, I may look back and read this every now and then, its not often I remember my dreams, nor do I have such vivid ones. But to me this was one to share, and remember forever.
( I didnt edit this or re read it before I posted it so excuse any misspelling, bad grammar or anything of such )
XOXO
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