ok... so....

I'm a little boggled.

maybe someone can help me out here! lol

where to begin?

well...

first...

I feel like I'm holding myself back from things.
It's all because I care about what people will say or how they will react. I care about my friends and their feelings.

it's starting to wear me down though. it's making me unhappy because I'm afraid to hurt someone.

putting it out there...
I like someone...
I don't know him very well but I have a great time.
even if there happens to be nothing... he's still a kick ass person.

I've been out of my norm the past few days and it feels FANTASTIC!

yes... i love my friends... i would be there anytime of any day to listen to them and just to be there for them but sometimes I can't handle it. can't handle the bitching the complaining... it really does effect me. it can change my mood eventhough it's not about me.

I guess I just feel like I'm hiding something... I dunno what... feelings I suppose... I dunno.