Ok so I know I haven't written a blog in such a long long time people lol but ive been very busy as of late and I have found myself working so hard that when im home all I feel like doing is playing games or watching movies with laura... I've turned to everyone's dad who does nothing after work :[ lol. Nah, really, I just don't like doing things on week nights, I mostly do stuff on the weekends when I know I don't have to be up super early the next morning, but since mission has started up again I dont work a normal week anymore and i have to be up at 4 am every morning... lol joy. So anyway, you can all imagine just how tired I am if I'm working from 4am every day especially since im supposed to go home around 1 but I usually have to stay until 3 or 4pm. (Mostly since something gets fucked and I have to fix it) And not to mention last week I worked six days and only got one day off, which of course I might as well have gone to work because I spent the day on the phone troubleshooting with people at work who don't know how to do my job! lol... Ok now I'm ranting... anyway you all get the picture.

So I've been busy, I'm sorry I haven't called many of you lately, it's not like I haven't had time it's just that I'm lazy lol. I mean hell, I don't even call my own mother most of the time, nor laura all that much when she didn't live here and not because I don't love them, I just hate talking on the phone lmao. So please guys, don't take it personal, I love you all and really do miss you guys, It's just hard.

Lately though, I feel as if some of my friends at home have divided into factions, waging campaigns of war against one another and playing games of sabotage, and deception to aid some cause that some of these people really have no stake in anymore or never did in the first place... and it breaks my heart. Last time I was home, my good friend Jimmy asked me about certain people, and in all honesty I really didn't want to hear it, I know what's been going on (not by choice) and I don't like any of it. Out of respect, I think, Jimmy didn't bring it up again, but lots of people have tried to bring the drama into my life that I want no part of it, and in truth I think they should have no part of it either. Since when is a relationship a friend's problem, other then to comfort and confide in their injured friend? Look all I am saying is that what ever the problem, It is between them, not us, friends.

It just hurts to see it all, I have the outside view from an insider's glance and it really does break my heart, but from now on if there is any dispute between my friends, I wish only to hear it from their mouths and that's it, no games of telephone and no one-sided, biased views are welcome with me, I only take what they tell me is wrong, and try to comfort them. But I will NOT tell them what to do, or wage wars in their name for that is not my job and neither is it yours, friends.

And in case you are confused, I am speaking of not just one event, but if you read this and are compelled that you are who I speak of, then you are probably right. If YOU are the one who is in need, please, always feel free to call me and confide in me, for a secret with me, is a secret forever. I love you all guys, and I would hope that all that I have said you would do for me as well.

And again, please don't think badly of me for this blog, It was not meant as an attack on anyone, a mature reader would surely see what I mean and agree with me.