you have no idea what it's like to be me liveing on the outside pretending everythings fine but truely on the inside i'm dying feeled with so much pain that sometime i think i'm already in hell but i've learned to get use to it and now it's just a normal thing i've taken the pain and made it make me complitly numb and now i have no feelings no heart no cares i'm just a cold hearted baster like the rest of the world i'm as close as i think i can get to death without dying i know this cuz 9 out of 10 time i wish i would just die already i've had these feelings for so long i can't rember not haveing them like i'm at the point now where i'm just about sick and tired of dilling with life nothing ever gets better it just gose from bad to worst and i tried of being abondaned by family backstabed by friends and broken hearted from girlfriends on the verge of just giveing up and slashing my wrist and leave a message "to all you who hate me hope ya happy now" cuz really i'm sick of people fucking with me and sick of feeling like the most hated person in the world like no one wants no one care for me i'm just sick and tired of my life i try to hold on for the ones i love but the weight is geting to heavy and i'm tired of holding it up