HONEY!!!  WE'RE HERE!!!!  You know you're always "part of the group".  The only reason it ever seems like you're not is cause when you come to hang out with us all you automatically assume that you're not going to be able to fit in and have fun with us!!  All you have to do is be yourself and TALK!!!!  You know we all love you so you shouldn't say you've lost us!  And hanging out with your bf is no prob, just make sure you give all us girls a call when you wanna hang out.  We'd call you more often, but your mom makes it so freaking difficult to even talk to you that it's alomost impossible to even talk to you, let alone invite you out somewhere.  I'm really sorry that you feel so crummy and I really wish I could help, but in order to be friends with people you have to be willing to try to communicate with them BEFORE you get really upset like this!!!

 

Luvs ALWAYS!!!!

Rhia

 

uggghhhhhhh!!!!!!! you KNOW i hate it when you get like this! and you probably know what i'm going to say. it's been FIVE DAYS SINCE SCHOOL STARTED. i don't even know where you are at lunch: the table is gone to some asshole froshies. let's do this by paragraph, shall we? 1: whose choice is it to hang out with Devin all the time? definitely not mine. hanging with the guys will NEVER, EVER replace hanging out with the girls-- key point number one. key point number 2 = hang out with us more often. if you're THERE more, you'll have more to say. AND, as an outsider (at first), you get the privilege of listening to the stupid mistakes we've made, and actually realizing how stupid they are. hello? major amusement right there. stop bitching about it -- DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! what makes you feel worse: hanging with us and knowing we understand and that you'll always be with our group, or being dragged around to some stupid-ass shit-sucking videogame binge party, knowing that he invited you not understanding that it automatically isolates you and is FUCKING BORING? it's a rhetorical question (as mr.chamberlin would say). 2: i don't think you've called me in the last month. how can you say that there's nobody to talk to? YOU DIDN'T TRY. i'm always happy to talk to you, you know that. i hate having to do this online, where everyone can read it, so avoid it and CALL ME. 3:see first sentence. adjusting to both a new style of music AND a new instrument takes time. give it some. nobody's perfect on their first try. even if they NEED to be. 4: oh...that's just the end. nm. i wish you took honors too. you belong in at least the english and/or the history. oh well, parents suck. yeah, i hate to start the year on a bitchy note, but this deserved it. and i'm calling you later, fo sho. don't fuck yourself over before anything happens, cuz then something good happens, and you're too fucked to enjoy it. i love you!!!!!!