this we do as a species ... there are those who support me in my endeavors. They know how much I impose upon our friendship. Thank you, for I am thankful for that. In the same respect even if I didn't have these individuals who looked out for me I can fall back on society's charity, for it provides the most basic of my needs. When I was young I was a runaway, when I was older I was military trained both of which makes the transition out of this society somewhat smoother.

not that I expect anyone to understand, but this is my separation from one path to another. It is not an easy thing to do. Too much programming has been installed as I forget to remember.

I want to return to the earth. I say that because it is something I have not done. I say this not to imply that it is the correct way, but seems to be a better direction to head in.

It makes sense to me on a level where everything I've learned thus far appears fundamentally flawed. Not wrong, only incorrect in how to live becomes all consuming.

I find there are too many distractions and people wonder why we suffer from ADD, as I watch spiders snag skillfully flying gnats underneath dodging, crawling ants ...