mmm.. life. and 17 years of it. isn't that so weird? i've been alive for 17 full years. it's weird because i don't even remember like half of it. haha. i wish i had some type of memory where i remembered like pretty much everything. or at least that i was able to remember every little detail of important events that i do remember.

oh well.. guess i can't really have that. so i suppose option number 3 would be to just live every moment to the fullest. like it's gonna be the last moment i'll ever have. gotta make stuff memorable, you know? i wasn't given this life just to let it pass me by or just sit back and let it be boring. that's dumb.

but you know what else is dumb? being too busy. because being too busy makes life pass me by in a different way, where everything's going by too fast and i don't catch where the important stuff is. that's what i gotta watch out for this semester. i can feel it coming. this is around the same time i started going to school here last year, and track is coming in a little over a month. man, i sure hope that doesn't kill me. it'll be busy but i know i can handle everything that's thrown at me. oh man, something fantastic happened today though. when i was pushing carts (yes, at Wal-Mart. don't hate.) tonight, the store manager came up to me and told me he was planning on moving me to the garden center in february. how sick is that?! that's like the best department in the whole store. i'm stoked.

on another note, i'm so glad God actually enjoys showing us what He wants when we actually seek His will. because shoot.. not only does He show it to you, He gives you such peace if you're willing to do whatever it is. and even if you're not willing and you ask Him to make you willing, He'll do it. amazing.

happy birthday to me. it's been a hard, long, toilsome, busy, fantastic, amazing, wonderful, COLD, scary, fun year. and i wouldn't change it for anything. i've grown and matured this year like i never have before.

chris.