i never realized how fast time flys until now. i feel like just yesterday that i just started my life. i feel like it was just yesterday when i met some of the people who meant so much to me and still do now. i think of the times when people came into my left and left without saying a word. i think of the times when i thought things were where i wanted them to be, but just fell back down. i feel like my time was then, but now i feel like ive never had that 'time'. sometimes i feel liek i was more mature back then, but now i know that my naivety has brought me more intellegence today. i always get that urge of nostalgia. i used to think about what did i do wrong for things to end up the way they did. but now i realize it was just never meant to be, and thats just how everything fell in to place. but i dont know, i feel like not everything is set into place. i feel like some components of my life are missing and i just cant seem to grasp what that is. but now all i can do is to live with whats infront of me. i want to work hard for what i want in the future. i wanna look back and know that whatever im working towards paid off. life recently has been so vague, so foggy. sometimes i just dont know where i'll fit in. i just hope i can gain that feeling of content again. its been awhile since ive had that feeling. but i know with the time ill give it, it will be worth it.