SO Lately I've noticed how immature people can be. Im not just talking about one person.. I have like 5 names running through my head as I type this. And like most of my blogs... its probably not going to make much sense, my head is a jumbled mess.

But all the petty things people get upset over in high school is supposed to stop after 20! Right? And then there are the things you get upset over, are angry for a while, and then GET OVER IT! Why doesnt anyone ever make it to that last part. They just cling to the anger (as if that makes life any easier). Why cant we all just get along? Im not perfect, i've held some pretty dumb grudges, but I at least give those people the opportunity to redem thereselves. Or in the very least ACT CIVIL! I just wish people could grow up. So here is my rant to you (the ones I speak of....and no I wont include names, they will be numbers...)

1. Im sorry that my very existance seems to trouble your life. But trust me, YOUR existance used to bother me, but Ive finally let that go. And for god's sake its been a YEAR!! i know I said some nasty things about you, but you've also said some nasty things about me, plus the whole original situation was pretty fucked up on your part. I know we both think were not at fault.. but we both are at fault for different things. I dont want to be your friend, but for you to sacrifice your friendship with a mutual friend (one who you used to consider your VERY BEST FRIEND) is ridicoulous and selfish on your part. We could at least act civil for her sake. And the whole texting drama about me being outside the other night.. also pretty ridicoulous. She did nothing wrong, and did not lie to you. you should have came and hung out with one of your best friends, I would not have said a word to you, or shot a dirty glance your way. In fact I told her it was fine to invite you. For someone who used to talk so much on forgivness and Karma, you dont seem to care about the bad karma destined to come your way. And monthes and monthes from now, your gonna look around and realize you lost one of your only best friends over something stupid, and childish.

2.  Your heart broken, and sad, I get it. But if you really loved her then you should want nothing more than for her to be happy, even if it not with you.

3. The silence thing is gay. i considered you a friend above all else. It makes me sad that for some reason you've decided to ignore my existance... even when we're in the same room. Its pretty much rude. I hope one day you grow up.


Anyways, thats my little rant. Sorry for the venting, but if you read it all the way through thanks for listening! 

Love ya'll

Amanda