Ignorance.
I've kept an incident which happened over 3 years ago to myself, and it has never left my mind in all that time. So I thought 'f**k it' I'm going to express my disgust and disapointment in certain people, and vent my views for all to read (minus naming names, which would do no one any good).
If you go far enough back in my blogs to the time before I left my family unit to venture out on my transitional journey, you will be able to read about my coming out to family and friends, and all the stresses and tears that came with such an experience. The first people I came out to had been very close friends of my wife and I, and indeed people I trusted a lot at that time, who I also thought would be accepting.
Well, as usual the people in my life had been shocked at such an unexpected admission, but confirmed at that time they would be supportive. Now everyone I told (excepting the Inlaws who made it clear they could quite happily burn me at the stake), started seeing me less and less and eventually one by one kept me at arms length until I finally left the 'inner circle' of so called friendship. I'm sure it had been of great relief that they no longer had to be associated with the 'weirdo' now that 'HE' could get on with dressing as a woman away from their embarisment. Thankfully my mum, brothers, and sister were ok on that front. My wife distanced herself as much as possible to, but to give her due, she is still allowing me access to my children without making life very difficult. Out of all the people, I can understand my wife's feelings more, because she had lost her man to a situation that can only be described as strange and unusual. In this case I ran off with another woman, with me actually being the other woman!
OK, to get back to the actual point of this blog entry. The daughter of the 1st couple I told about my gender issues is also the best friend of my own daughter. She regularly had a sleep over at our family home at that time. After telling the parents about myself, I did wonder if that arrangement would stop. Thankfully it didn't, but I picked up on something the girl said as we hugged goodbye and the two parents came to pick her up. She said to them in a typically girly fun way about 4 times in a row, "Oh he touched me, he touched me, he touched me, he touched me". Now this girl is a fun lass, and likes to joke, and indeed like all children, also likes to wind her parents up.
Anyway, it didn't actually hit home what actually had been behind what she had been saying at that moment, but I did notice the faces on the two parents and them telling her to keep quiet. It was at that moment it suddenly dawned on me what that all had meant...............THEY HAD BLOODY WELL TOLD THEIR DAUGHTER TO INFORM THEM IF I ABUSED HER OR TOUCHED HER IN ANY WAY!!!!!!!!
Upon reflection, I now would rather have confronted them face to face at that moment in time and ask them to admit what they had said to their daughter. However I had instead opted to keep quiet, because I already had a lot on my plate as it was trying to explain the situation to everyone without an arguement developing. I also knew I'd be singled out as the bad one, and likely accused of making a mountain out of a mole hill. My situation had been bad enough without giving people excussed to go against me at that time.
Now, if you put the shoe on the other foot, I suppose you could say they were only placing their daughters safety before anything else. That is fair enough, all parents should. However, you would think that reasonably well educated middle class people would be able to work out the difference between a friend who has gender identity issues, and a 'F**KING' Paedophile for christ sake!!!!!!!
Sadly this world is sooooo very blinkered to anything diverse and different from their own accepted hetrosexual norm, and that everyone else could be a suspect child abusing monster!
Well here is a very strong message for all you 'F**kwits' who think that way. I am not the weirdo. I'm actually the most honest and up front person you will even know who could never physically harm anyone if I tried. My sexual needs are reasonably basic with no kinky stuff that I have found floats my boat yet, and should never be mistaken against gender issus anyway. What all you people should really be doing, is having a closer inward look at yourselves and your family, rather than pointing the finger at easy targets like myself. 9 times out of ten, it is your own bloody uncle or someone even closer to you who is the real threat to your kid........but it sure as hell is not me!
So wake up people, and take a good look around you at this new world..........because if you don't, people like me will one day make everyone else open their eyes to the bigoted twat like you who falsely point fingers.
Oh, and the photo above is a pic of a 'normal' person (me) going about my 'normal' everyday working life as a Project Manager. The people in my work who knew me less than my so called former friends accepted me as who I am.........and not one stupid 'paedophile' comment had been made!
Alex.
