I knew sometime in my life we all would go our seperate ways and start new lives as individuals, i just never thought it would be so soon.  I look back at our times with each other. We were so young and niave. It felt like we would be together forever. Its strange you know, when your young you never think about the future, your future without your brothers, sisters, and parents. You think they are going to be around you forever. Always bugging you about stuff, laughing with you when you see a funny movie, or crying with you when a love one dies.  You just think what you want to be when you grow up, if you are going to marry or have kids, and where you going to live. You never think about the details and what your family is going to do when you are all grown up. Then when you do grow up and just realizes this for the first time it hits you like a ton of bricks. Well dat is what happened to me. My brother is going to the navy for 5 years. I always thought we were going to b around each other forever. Maybe not in the same house or the same town but enough distant that i can see them often. 5 years is a long time and im going to miss him dearly. Yes im going to see him again but im so use to him being there for me that it feels strange knowing he will be gone for awhile. He is leaving tomorrow and im scared that i wont be able to say goodbye to him. What if something happens dat I wont be able to see him at all and i never got to say goodbye. I will be sad. But dat is my imagination running wild. Us four kids never really got along very well but we were always there for each other when we were in trouble.

I hope my brother knows dat i love him with all of my heart and i hope he finds da right path in life he wants to take and wish him good luck on his journey. I will always be here for him. I love him and i will miss him dearly.