Sometimes i feel extremely selfish wanting to just make music, when many just have to put up with the hand they are dealt. But why should i just put up with a system that hasnt been built for me. I sit at work doing something interesting and rewarding which is good, but then i put my headphones on to concentrate and listen to music, then all i want to do is be at home in my studio creating music, surrounded by sound and beats.

Thats all i want to do, just create music, i know i can do it as i have had stuff released, some people see me as a musician so i guess i could call myself one. But it feels like to spend a few hours making music i have to steal that time like a criminal. It actually gets to the stage where i feel ill with loss, the same feeling that i get when i think of those that are no longer here. It also means that i am not working to my full potential and therefore not rewarding those that put their faith in me, those people that run record labels are not getting the best of me, and if i can't do that then i should just stop making music.