it's a sad state of affairs when an episode of "one tree hill" (watched only as a last resort) makes you realize what's really important in life.

::sigh::

i've been having these severe flashback issues lately, mostly fueled by the fact that i'm bored and have little destractions to keep me sane.

also fueling these fits of mad rememberance is the fact that chelsea and i are kind of reconnecting after a few months of being nearly out of contact. it didn't bother me so much because there were valid reasons for this lack of friendshippy thing, but chelsea has been such a huge part of my life for like 4 1/2 years now, and it's kind of sucking not to have her around.

so, therefore, i hereby dub this the "hey, you, yeah, i love ya" blog.

messages for those of you i still love...

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chelsea: hey girlie. i know things have been crazy for you, but you always pull through for me when i really need you. you're amazing in every single little way, and i hope you remember that. there's not a lot to say to you that you don't already know, lol!

katie: i miss you. like SO much. i miss your terrible jokes, your silly laugh, and your comforting presence. i miss our stupid conversations, and i miss the way you can brighten up any bad day. my thoughts are constantly drifting to you, whether it's celia telling me terrible stories about changing your sister's diaper or just me surfing myspace and seeing your profile. i know i kind of suck royally at keeping in touch, but i'm trying. i promise. CALL ME like the second you get this...

david: talking monkey? yeah, came here from the future... ugly sucker, only says "ficus..."

joseph: you're fuckin' cool, dude. you're kind of like my best friend, and it's pretty crazy... never would have seen that one coming! i hope you know how damn important you are to me. plus, i can read that blog you wrote after i kissed you and it makes me all glowy and happy and shit. ;) oh, and that chick (you know who i'm talkin' about) is crazy for shooting you down.

jake: the "gravy" at mannie's is gross. tried it; hated it. you're a freak.

genny: french fries are non-lethal attack mechanisms. that said, david's a dick. but you knew that.

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umm, if i forgot you, kill me in my sleep.