No more looking back on the past. I know good things never last. Someone fucks up and puts up a front. That's when it changes. This happy story changes pages. From bright and happy, joyful and fun to dark and sad, angry and glum. The tears start to fall and that's when we have to end it all. Giving your heart is a dangerous thing. I've done it twice and look where I've come. I've come to this road of pain and sadness anger and madness. I once was fun, sweet, loving and cool. Now I am nasty, bitchy and sometimes cruel. I am no longer myself and I hate me this way. Its like a sickness inside that fights to stay. I hate it! Go away! Let me be! I want to be me! Why do you want to attack me? Take my happiness away from me. I must be strong the time has come! I cannot let myself go numb. I must fight to stay I must remain the happy girl that I once became! If not my heart will die forever be cold and as tough as leather. It is sad to say but it is true I must not look back or I will always loose...