I've been one of those friends to help you through things and I've also been one that has left with a gap ... I'm sorry we need to talk I'll do anything for us to just talk call me when you can
 

Lockdown huh? So you are saying that just because you aren't winning you are going to quit? You can't win a championship game without playing the season first. And don't take "playing" as an ambiguous term, you know what I mean ;) !! Aaron, you are 18!!!! You have plenty of time to settle down. But live your life for now, and not for later. Without doing so, you'll loose everything you have now and never enjoy your future later. Also, everyone goes through heartbreak at somepoint in their life, but all we can do is keep pushing forward and live life to the fullest. I know you think all of the past relationships you have been in have been failures and complete waste of your time, but dont' think of it that way. I can remember the countless # of times when we were together of how happy you were and how happy you made me. And then all of the other times when we weren't together and you were with someone else and you couldn't stop talking about them or you were so excited about just the thought of them. Without all of the bad times, the good times wouldn't have been so special. I'm not saying don't forget the bad times, but don't let them outweigh all the good ones. We had way too many good times for us to just forget them because of a bad fall out. Life wasn't made to be easy or else we would be living the life of luxury right now. We play the hand we are dealt every day and don't question it...just play it. And I know you have concocted (sp?) some good argument against what I have wrote as you are reading this bc, well we are both stubborn and I have known you for way too long. *Stop smiling ;) * But promise me that you won't try to be an adult so quickly -- you're still in your teens. All I wish is for you to be happy, and I know that hasn't come easily for the both of us lately. But I really do hope you find that one person that makes your stomach flip every time you see or talk to them, that makes your heart skip a beat as she enters the room, that one person who loves you so much that she'll talk to you as long as she can on the phone until she falls asleep, that one person who wants a family just as much as you do, and that one person who can love you just as much as you love her. Just be patient and she will come to you...don't rush it. You'll find it one day, and you'll know when.
 

and btw this "story" aiant over... we both might be heartbroken .. but this sure as hell aint over!
 

How is there a gap? I'm pretty sure you have three great friends out of the deal. Even

though none of them worked out to be what you wanted (or didn't want), you gained

experience and knowledge. Every relationship prepares you for the ultimate relationship-

where you give your everything to one person and still want to give more. It's not over,

Aaron. Danielle's right- you're eighteen. Eighteen! Focus on school, and getting your own life

together. Find your true calling and follow it. Make your dreams come true, because after

you've done that, you'll be fully equipped to help the love of your life do the same. Don't

give up, alright? There is a girl out there who is absolutely perfect for you. And when you

find her, she'll be ready to love you like you deserve.