Last night I performed on KXLU again, this time just as Surface 10--myself.
I had prepared a little more, not much, but somehow it made all the difference this time. There is something about the focus required for going solo that I've always been able to get more achieved with; a sad social fact for many, but sometimes it's what works. Regardless, I still have confidence that there are many masterful, collaborative performances to come with Vic and others.
It was tough cementing all of my settings for programs like Ableton Live and Reactor (especially combined) but quickly saw why I had so many problems the first time.
Still, last night the set was perfect; some live, some prerecorded and played over. The first song was totally live and the set grew into more of an embellishment, but everything with a hint of that "bad-ass" energy I love. It felt great by set's end, and I had few words to say because why ruin a good thing with words that haven't been thought out?
This morning a friend called to say she really enjoyed the set, but wishes I hadn't said "this is all that's left" during my one sentence spoken on the air before giving my website addresses. I was on top of the world before that moment, before the realization that this realm and this universe was virtually manufactured through imperfection, and thus, no matter how good I am, it will never be something I can achieve either.
Still smiling,
Dean
P.S. Audio from my live set has been posted on Alien Air website. Just go to the archive at the bottom, posted as 2009-08-02: