It's only a few days over due... but technically Full Circle Radio hasn't happened yet so I'm not late yet. But I figure much as I left I owe people a reason as to why I came back.

You know why I left: health, stress, new job, lack of desire for the business. I'll take all of em on at once.

Health: While the heart palpation thing turned out to be nothing serious it was a big wake up call and I started dieting (No soda 'cept diet on the weekends only water juice tea and coffee during weekdays cut out calories wherever you can excercise as much as possible eat breakfast every day is what I did.) I lost about 39 pounds at one point but has since gained back about ten of those and am sitting at 239. I feel much better I look much better I still have a double chin which I'd like to get rid of. But I feel like I'm much healthier.

Stress: I'll be honest I was in a real bad spot in my life. My job, my famile and my relationship fell apart all at once DPW just wasn't something I could do with all that going on. I'm not gonna give you some spiel how I found Jesus or somethin. I just decided that I wasn't gonna be unhappy and stressed out any more and I'll be damned it worked even as I was struggling with getting the ring up and down on saturday I didn't get stressed I just worked on it stayed light (kept Kevin sane) and enjoyed myself. Havin Stressmesiter JJ out on the road did help as he has the ability to stress anyone out. I think I'll call him Stressmeister JJ at one point in time next show (which I'm like 85% sure I'll be at).

Lack of love for the biz: Oh man... have you WATCHED the product out there? It'd GOD AWFUL. WWE stinks. TNA is worse. ECW was doing ok... I TiVo it... So when I thought to myself jesus what is WRONG with wrestling. Then I was like I may not know what's wrong. I know what's right and Defiant Pro Wrestling is right. We may not have 5 star matches every time out but this company keeps wrestling in Connecticut fresh. It's great. I have RARELY seen a DPW match I didn't like that's the truth that's not a shill.

So why did I decide to come back? I love the fans. I love feeling important. And I love the people in the back I said to someone backstage the fans are getting ripped off they don't get to see the real good stuff that happens back here. The adrenaline I had going at Lines Crossed was amazing A FUCKING MAZING. I loved it. I can't stop thanking Mike for taking me back cause he didn't have to. He coulda said fuck you. He didn't. Mike is a fucking stand up guy. I cannot wait for the next show. CANNOT wait.

I seriously wanna thank everyone for the kind words and I'm kinda sorry I have to go back on em and come back to wrestling. I called it a retirement cause I really thought I would never do it again. I thought that after I worked my first match. But this business and I are like an abusive couple we keep coming back to each other no matter how much one smacks the shit out of the other.

Thank You for reading and I hope to see you all Feb 10th (if this lady doesn't cover my shift there will be HELL to pay.)