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State: Ontario
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009 
07.29.09

I can't believe July is almost over. What happened?

Also, I remember writing that last summer. What happened?

And I remember when I was a child and summer would end, and I would like awake at night, forcing myself to fight slumber in a naive attempt to prolong the inevitability of morning arriving, and the first day of school.....What happened?

Mid summer was always a magical point. Actually, the last couple weeks in July were always something for me. June I liked too. August, not so much. Just started to crawl closer to my most hated month, Miss September. She is a witch. Boo. Hiss.

I've been cooped up so long making this record, I feel so detached from everything. I've been pacing my street at night, feeling this overwhelming sense of depression, wondering how things of changed. 

Where's the big "pause" button on the world?

Let me ask you all a question: If you could pause your life only once, at any time, to live one age of your life for as long as you want, when would you press the button?

xo

~d.v


CASSIE CORRADO
Cassie Corrado

 
I DONT KNOW IF MY TIME TO PAUSE HAS COME YET. ASK ME THAT QUESTION AGAIN IN 20 YEARS LOL.
 
Posted by CASSIE CORRADO on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 6:51 AM
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Ash

 
if I could choose the moment and the length, I'd pick... my whole life

Call me crazy, but I think I'd get bored even with the most intense and happiest part of my life.

Besides, while some say hindsight is 20/20, I think looking back some things end up rose colored, some end up blue, and I don't have the right 3-d glasses to really judge them correctly anymore.

 
Posted by Ash on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 6:53 AM
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Tracey

 
Summer, 1983 ~ first car, first real job, every afternoon on the beach, and first love...

 
Posted by Tracey on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 6:57 AM
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DJ Electro/Acoustic Knight
Joe Brideau

 
I wouldn't...but I would like to sometimes. I'm kinda going through that funk myself. But I think it's an important question to ask...to pause for a moment and think about our lives. I remember much happier times...I also remember some really, really low times in my life. When I first listened to the Downward Spiral I was ready to quit on life...seriously. It made me see how sad I was...and how sad life can be.

I can't remember the best age of my life. My earliest memory was getting hit in the face by a snowball as I stood in an empty school yard. I must have been about 5 years old...That kinda set the stage for the rest of my life - constant bullying, disappointment, an angry father and a very peculiar upbringing in a steel town that has now crumbled.

I want to press the "pause" button all the time. And I do. I pause. I stand on the pier in Port Dalhousie or take a hike in the Short Hills to gain some perspective. Or I play guitar or listen to music. That's the best therapy for me. When I see the trees, feel the sun, or hear the sadness of other musicians I feel less alone...

I'd like to press the button at a time when I was surrounded by beautiful things (my definition ofcourse!)...a girl, a precious moment when I accomplished something I never thought I could do, a scenery, a certain smell, a melody...a combination of things that I can't really describe. I guess that's where that existential feeling comes in.

Anyway...you made me think...and that's important. Even if it means pacing the streets at night. Just be careful with your mind. It can really fuck with you under the right conditions and render you hopeless. Keep using the depression to your advantage because in the end...it will sound really good when you put it out there musically.

You've got a curse...but you also have a very special gift.



 
Posted by DJ Electro/Acoustic Knight on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 7:17 AM
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Epitome Zero
Epitome Zero

 
I'm 28 now and have been thinking a lot about this over the last year or so... feel like the best years are behind me already... so I wish I could've paused when I was about 22 or something, when the world still seemed exciting and full of promise.
 
Posted by Epitome Zero on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 7:44 AM
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thomas
Thomas Mize

 
8 months ago.

 
Posted by thomas on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 7:52 AM
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Vyden Myria
Vyden Myria

 
i'd pause that night in 2001 when i was in the kitchen helping my mom cook dinner, and i heard from the distance in the living room the most beautiful music that's blessed my ears...

it was the song nyja lagif from Sigur Ros and it was a live recording for a show called HBO Reverb...

that was the first day of my new life

it's what taught me that great music had to be sought out ... i grew up in a southern country town and didn't know about what all was out there, yet

 
Posted by Vyden Myria on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 7:57 AM
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R_P_M

 
That is a very good question and not easily answered. I shall have to think about it.

 
Posted by R_P_M on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 10:13 AM
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Lainey

 
When you're young, I think you don't have the appreciation for those little things that make life at the very least tolerable... right now at 18 I wouldn't want to press pause because nothing is decided yet, I have nothing to hold onto for support (all the cliche stuff like parents divorcing, moving away to college, starting college, etc.) ... I think maybe after settling down, and any kids are gone, and I'm with someone I love very much, and I'm retired... then I might press pause. The excitement of raising children is over and all those other things as well! I'd be too old to be worrying about wrinkles or grey hair. Maybe it sounds really boring but I just want to be able to rest after everything is said and done. But perhaps that's death, and another post for you :p 
 
Posted by Lainey on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 2:28 PM
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- [LOUDA] -

 
I don't think I've had that moment in my life when I would press the button. And when it does arrive, I don't know if I would actually want to pause the moment. I'm assuming that it'd be so exciting I would want to keep moving forward, not be at a standstill.

When would you press the button, Daniel? The mid summer magical moment you wrote about?
 
Posted by - [LOUDA] - on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 3:27 PM
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Melody

 
I would pause my life at the age of 5. Blissful youth and everlasting days.... when the world seems untainted and a joyous place to run free and play.  Don't feel detached Dan, we're all here for you :) and your fans will give you all the support you need. good luck with your album, make it happen!

 
Posted by Melody on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 6:57 PM
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Miss Susan

 
There is one night in June of 1996... projekt records had a huge 2 day concert in Chicago... Oh, it was so brilliant and beautiful and fun!!  FUN!!!  I felt more alive that one night than almost any other since.  :)  And I fell so in love... hard... sigh.  I would like to visit that one night once again.
 
Posted by Miss Susan on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 8:30 PM
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Jenny

 
I'd have to agree with a couple of other posters here and say that I don't think I'd want to hit the pause button.  But in the spirit of nostalgia, which is where I think you're coming from right now...two ages come to mind immediately - 19 and 26. 

age 19 was just a fun, carefree time back in the early nineties....I enjoyed myself, my friends, even my old 1979 Dodge....a certifiable piece of shit, but in hindsight...my favorite car:D

and age 26...because I was living in Austin, Texas, had moved over 1400 miles away from all the family and friends I had ever known and took a chance.  That was indeed very exciting, thrilling, yet equally terrifying all at the same time....for that I would call it magical.  I would never trade that experience for anything, and one of my closest friends now is someone I met while living there and she is one of the dearest people in my life.
 
Posted by Jenny on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 10:40 PM
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Steph

 
I'm not so sure I would want to pause my life, but I hear people enjoy their 60s the most. I wouldn't mind turning back time though.

 
Posted by Steph on Wednesday, July 29, 2009 - 11:17 PM
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Ryan

 
I've grown and done so much from 2005 until now so if I had to pick a period it would be that, but I'd rather continue onward.  So like others maybe I haven't yet hit that point or maybe it was around the beginning of 2008 when I first met that special girl.  Everything seemed perfect, but it didn't happen.

I just don't know.
 
Posted by Ryan on Thursday, July 30, 2009 - 2:30 AM
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Sharon

 
When I was 5, growing up in Campbell River, before my father passed. When I think of childhood, that is the place I measure happiness by.
 
Posted by Sharon on Thursday, July 30, 2009 - 2:35 AM
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Mishou

 
I think that's a trick question. And thanks to your "What happened"s I keep hearing Todd Shapiro's voice! Don't make me pause there!
Part of me wants to say that pausing means I'm stuck-- I don't think I could appriciate something I was stuck in, sort of like Groundhog Day. But I guess pausing isn't stopping-- it's just taking in a moment, once again. I pause all of the time, I guess, and usually in jarring moments that I can't quite figure out...In some of the moments that I actually enjoy pausing in, joy is coupled with hurt and loss. So I've got to go farther back, to where ignorance is bliss.
I'm three years old. I'm lying in deep green grass, watching clouds drift across a crisp blue sky. Dad is playing cricket and I know that tea time is coming soon-- I've waited all day for it. Little triangular sandwhiches of egg salad and salmon, cookies, tea, and Timbits. My cousin, Alison, might come by at any moment to go and play "lost" (hide and go seek) in the buildings at Ridley College. When Dad finishes playing cricket, we'll head back to Uncle Chris' for Pop Shop pop and beer with the Jamaican farm workers who always bring me big smiles and fresh fruit, like beautiful black cherries. If I'm lucky, Dad and I will kick the soccer ball around in the field by the tall grass as the sun sets, and mom will come over and yell at us to get home for dinner because she misses us, having not seen us all day.
Thanks for the pause. I'm going back to play, now.

 
Posted by Mishou on Thursday, July 30, 2009 - 3:00 AM
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Darcy

 
NOW - age 37 - why?  I have some wisdom of these years, and still the youthful good looks  and physical stamina to enjoy it!
 
Posted by Darcy on Thursday, July 30, 2009 - 3:58 AM
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The Enigma Facade

 
the time to pause hasn't come for me yet.  i rebelled against the struggle up and to this point. now i've succeeded, and the calm doesnt propel me nearly as much.

If i were to pick a moment, would i pick a time of suffering where I feel motivated to rise to the occasion, or a moment now, where things seem to be OK but there's no external motivation? I can't decide.

~N

 
Posted by The Enigma Facade on Saturday, August 01, 2009 - 8:01 AM
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p o l a r i s

 
I would choose summer 1993.  I was 13, and music was beginning to add an entirely new dimension to my life.  Nearly all the bands that would go on to become my "favorites" released stellar albums that year, I attended my first concert, and I could wake up early on Saturday mornings and still catch bands like Radiohead and New Order on MTV and VH1.  It was a magical time!!

 
Posted by p o l a r i s on Saturday, August 01, 2009 - 4:03 PM
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LB
Laura Barlow

 
Rewind and pause? pffft
Definitely not. And it's not that there aren't moments that i love to remember but i think about it and it seems that reliving them wouldn't be as sweet as the memory.
I'm a little anxious for the future and I think I would rather FF>> maybe five years. Or ten. i don't need to go back I need to get ahead.

 
Posted by LB on Wednesday, August 05, 2009 - 4:24 AM
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Kellie
Kellie Jones

 
I would pause it when I was 7... didn't know death or pain.  Everyone I loved was still around, I was living in the sun in Hawaii, all wide-eyed and full of dreams and creativity.  I was oblivious to my parents' financial issues because they didn't let it show.  Man... ignorance is bliss and childhood was sweet

 
Posted by Kellie on Thursday, August 06, 2009 - 5:47 AM
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