10.13.09
What a confusing day. After a week or two of avoiding settling back down to the music, I listened to about 20 songs I had left behind months ago. And as it turns out to my ears, at least half of these songs were giving me goosebumps.
!?
So. Now. I've decided to attempt replacing at least half, maybe almost the whole album at this point. The thought of that is daunting.
Either this is necessary, or I'm completely out of my mind. Technically, the record could be finished. 12 songs recorded and waiting for final mix. Yet there are just too many questions and moments of dissolution in and amongst the notes. There has to be a trick to get this right, aside from taking medication and getting drunk and pretending it doesn't exist.
If this is the case, I have a lot of work in the months ahead. These 'new/old' songs aren't quite songs yet. But scribbles and melodies and ideas that need to be written first. Then all recorded wholeheartedly and with energy and passion that I have to dig out of myself.
How this is going to happen logistically, physically, and financially is a mystery.
One day at a time.
In other news, fall is starting to get beautiful. And my playlist is full of new music. That's a good combination. The days are crisp, the nights cold. We missed sweater weather all together : - unless mother nature is trying to mess with us. Here I will find inspiration to get me through this mess of work.
I'm thinking of moving locations to work. Or perhaps calling someone in. For God sake's, I'm just too saturated to work further with any sanity and not have it sound like a mess. These new ideas could be good.
Would a double album be ridiculous? In a time when people don't even buy regular albums, and within our new 'single' release culture. Of downloads. Usually free. Ipods. Shuffle. Hair-dryer music. Disposable. Delete buttons. Track skips. Playlists. Compression. Bit rates. 360 deals. Dead radio. Dead video. Recession ticket prices.
Something like that.
xo
~d.v