~Crack Pipe~

While laboring in the field
And walking down the road
I found a little crack pipe
With a story to be told
I could tell that he held it tight
The lonely pilgrim that he was
Stripped of everything of value
For every fleeting buzz
With every toke that he took
Seeking consolation from his pain
He bought it hook line and sinker
To enter the losing game
By the condition of that little pipe
I could tell it was a long long while
Providing brief happiness
With many, many smiles
Only a mere vapor
Though long it might have felt
It was only a short year or so
To the point he saw the belts
They were wrapped around him
With many many chains
Twisted and locked together
To cause him much more pain
A deception it is he said!
As he looked the devil in the eye
And he responded to him
You shall surely die
In the midst of his pain weeping
He reached the heavens when he cried
He screamed to this Man Jesus
For he was about to die
At that moment he saw a finger
It was writing on a wall
It's message was I'll forgive you
Your sin though great or small
The young man kept on crying
As the Savior touched his soul
He commanded all the demons
That had taken all the toll
He forced them all to leave him
And he rolled and screamed on the floor
There was foam coming from his mouth
As the demons his soul tore
One by one to leave him
He heard the Saviors voice
He spoke softly to tell him
I'm glad you made this choice
Beyond all things I love you
I came to set you free
Don't be afraid of the future
For now you belong to Me
Go pick up your little Bible
And read My Love letter to you
The one your parents read
Before you were feeling blue
You'll find there is a promise
To dry your every tear
32,000 promises
That you can hold very dear
No matter the struggle I'll help you
As I the LORD never fail
Mark your compass on the water
And raise your spiritual sail
My Wind will move you forward
And your rudder My Word shall be
I AM JESUS your SAVIOR
I came to set you FREE.




August 15th 2007
His Little Child, Jeffrey
Delivered drug addict
For The Glory Of GOD
The ALMIGHTY is my Copyright
You have my permission to send this all over the world
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I may come back to this blog and write about my experiences with drugs and other things later but what I will tell you is that if you are tempted with drugs DON'T GO THAT WAY! It is a extremely PAINFUL life to live and as well it is not easy to live after The LORD JESUS CHRIST DELIVERS you. The deliverance part is excruciatingly painful as well and it is something you NEVER want to experience in your life. My advice to you is GIVE YOUR LIFE TO JESUS CHRIST for the petty cheap IMITATIONS of this world PALE in COMPARISON to the LOVE of GOD found in CHRIST JESUS the LORD of GLORY.


The reason this was written was because I found a crack pipe on a roadway while walking and I picked it up and looked at it. The Idea then came to write a poem about the person who carried it and lost it or threw it away. The experience described in the poem is pretty much what I have seen for myself. After I picked up the thing I put it into my pocket with burning hatred over the devil and his tools so my intent was to grind that little crack pipe to dust and blow it to the wind

I was in my car driving after that event and the words to the poem began coming to me, so having nothing to write them on I wrote with a sharpie on a frisbee in my car that I use for frisbee golf. The writing was started there then it was finished in my room here and then posted.




There is pictures that I may try to put in this blog with the poem here but for now until I figure it out I will be posting them in my pictures here. I have photos of the frisbee and the process where I put the pipe in a vise and ground it to powder right before the twerp devil and his angels. I pray many people read this poem, COPY IT AND PASTE IT AND SEND IT ALL OVER THE WORLD. I would pray that people who read this will get a vivid picture of how painful that kind of life is and avoid making such destructive decisions. So the really bad experience will turn to good by saving others lives and in that Giving ALL the GLORY to JESUS.



Pro 8:13 The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogance, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate.




Pro 14:12 There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.




Heb 7:25-26 Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them. (26) For such a high priest became us, who is holy, harmless, undefiled, separate from sinners, and made higher than the heavens;




Act 16:25-34 And at midnight Paul and Silas prayed, and sang praises unto God: and the prisoners heard them. (26) And suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken: and immediately all the doors were opened, and every one's bands were loosed. (27) And the keeper of the prison awaking out of his sleep, and seeing the prison doors open, he drew out his sword, and would have killed himself, supposing that the prisoners had been fled. (28) But Paul cried with a loud voice, saying, Do thyself no harm: for we are all here. (29) Then he called for a light, and sprang in, and came trembling, and fell down before Paul and Silas, (30) And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved? (31) And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house. (32) And they spake unto him the word of the Lord, and to all that were in his house. (33) And he took them the same hour of the night, and washed their stripes; and was baptized, he and all his, straightway. (34) And when he had brought them into his house, he set meat before them, and rejoiced, believing in God with all his house.




Mar 16:9 Now when Jesus was risen from the dead early the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom he had cast seven devils.




Luk 7:36-50 And one of the Pharisees desired him that he would eat with him. And he went into the Pharisee's house, and sat down to meat. (37) And, behold, a woman (Mary) in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment, (38) And stood at his feet behind him weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe them with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment. (39) Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner. (40) And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on. (41) There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty. (42) And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most? (43) Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged. (44) And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head. (45) Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet. (46) My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment. (47) Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. (48) And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven. (49) And they that sat at meat with him began to say within themselves, Who is this that forgiveth sins also? (50) And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace.




Mat 26:6-13 Now when Jesus was in Bethany, in the house of Simon the leper, (7) There came unto him a woman having an alabaster box of very precious ointment, and poured it on his head, as he sat at meat. (8) But when his disciples saw it, they had indignation, saying, To what purpose is this waste? (9) For this ointment might have been sold for much, and given to the poor. (10) When Jesus understood it, he said unto them, Why trouble ye the woman? for she hath wrought a good work upon me. (11) For ye have the poor always with you; but me ye have not always. (12) For in that she poured this ointment on my body, she did it for my burial. (13) Verily I say unto you, Wheresoever this gospel shall be preached in the whole world, there shall also this, that this woman (Mary) hath done, be told for a memorial of her.
 

Wow. Amazing writing. to be able to move someone with words like that, you have a talent that i admire.
 

I didn't write this, but I can say this: God speaks through us. It's quite AWESOME!!! Everything we do has an impact on someone. I remember at an overnight school function, I left my Bible sitting open on my bed. I didn't really do it for a reason, I just left it there after reading it. One man that was in my dorm room wrote me a note that said something about it encouraged him to see someone with one. God spoke through me and I didn't even know it!! Talk to God about it... Ask Him to use you. ..................Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans that I have for you; Plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."........................Jesus loves you more than anyone else ever can.............Dylan "the" Moore
 

wel.... im not exactly sure as what to say.... but im 14 years old and ive already seen so much happen for the glory of christ....i have a best friend by the name of EMily pender.... She has a sister named Andrea pender.... andrea was in a reck on december 3, 2004.... she is still in a coma to this day and needs tons of prayer.... i ask that ne1 who reads this blog that u would please pray for her and her family... andrea has 3 other sisters and 1 brother... so u can imagine the hurt they are goin through.... but.... andrea was NOT supposed to live through the night.... but GOd had something else for her.... and a purpose for all of this.... i just want to tell all of u there is a purpose for everything.... so many people were changed from her accident.... also... my brother is in the marines so he goes under alot of pressure.... he began to drink and get high all the time and then came to the point where he cheeted on his wife.... our family was upset and prayed and prayed.... I prayed that somehow God would just change him back to how he used to be and he would be miserable.... and all the sudden he talked to his wife and broke down... he said he was miserable and he has been back in church ever since.... him and his wife are back to gether, and he is becoming more and more Christlike.... so GOD DOES ANSWER PRAYER... i promise... and sometimes though it might not be the answer u want.... just truse him..... and itll all work out..... PRAISE GOD! -daniel
 

I had a friend (more like a little sister) who was in a wreck like that. She was in a coma for about 8-9 months and God brought her out. She still has a few problems, but our awesome God has given her and all of us around her a miracle because the doctors didn't expect Brandy to live either. She does have problems walking sometimes, but she says that her problems are not nearly as bad as what some people have and she just thanks God she is alive. I know that God can take care of us all.

I just noticed that yours was written over a year ago, but that's okay. I still am posting my reply anyway.

Hope you have a blessed day.

Your friend,
Serena Poulson
 

Wow, where do I begin. I was about to graduate from my undergraduate program and start law school. I was scared and started to drink heavily. I had always drank with friends since I turned 21 but this was different. I felt empty and I was trying to fill the God shaped hole in my heart with booze. I would go out with friends with the specific purpose to get drunk. I did this for awhile. One Sunday morning after I had been out all night drinking the Holy Spirit woke me up. I felt directed to go to church. I went to a church I had attended a few years before. The preacher was talking about Jesus and His love for us. As I sat there it hit me, I was at a crossroads. I could either accept the Savior or become an alcoholic. Right there I accepted the Lord as my Savior. I quit drinking and have never had that empty feeling again. Shortly after I was saved I met my husband, who has become my spiritual mentor. He answers questions I have about the Bible or anything else Christ related. God blessed me with salvation and a Christian husband in a matter of months. I am grateful Jesus for all you do for me. I know I don't deserve your love but thanks for it. I love you Lord.
 

i had a terrible experience with religion as a child in the catholic church(no not that) i got tired of hearing one man give his interpretation to the bible. i didn't go to church for many years. my friend in high school got me listening to some christan rock.( dc talk, jars of clay,and plumb) but i'm glad he didnt actually ask me to go with him. at that point it would have been a fight and i might have lost a friend. then i got into the left behind series. after high school i realized i should go to church. after all i believed in God. there was never any doubt about that. i just wasn't sure about the whole Jesus walkin on water and the other miracles. you know cool stories but way exagerrated. after being unemployed for a year and a half i finally broke down and applied at mcdonalds. there i met a very cool guy who happened to be a pastors son. we became friends and one saturday night he called and asked me to go to church with him. my first thought was NO!!!!! i couldn't stand organized religion. plus it was a 45 min drive. but he said heather would be there and didn't want to sit alone. i had a crush on her. then again any straight guy did. so i went and really enjoyed myself. i kept going and very quickly realized that Jesus wasn't organized religion. He was my Savior. i made Him so in august of 2004 and became deeply involved in my church Thank You Jesus. I love You more than words.
 

hi mijo, i read your story and it realy touched me . i am glad that you decided to except jesus as you saviour. god bless you and your dad. and mom of course.....
 

That is an amazing story. I would like to share my story with you sometime. I pray I will get to know you better.
 

I agree that the story posted by "J Freak" (2 shorten, sorry!) is an amazing story. I love this story. I thought I'd be able to just read these & not comment, but the testimonies of people are SO powerful. It's hard to just keep quiet about them! btw, my profile pic. is of my kids. so u know
 

Where do I begin,
First to give you a background my dad became a minister when I was 11 years old. But that confused me because he and my mom got divorced before then. My mom did not want to move where the Lord was calling my dad, so they parted ways. I believe to this day they always loved each other, but there were things there that were hard for my dad and my mom so they parted. I moved to live with my dad for a year and saw him save souls and one of them was mine. I was baptized at the age of 11 1/2 yrs old and I believe the Lord has kept me from a lot of harm.

I still have my struggles. If you read my profile, I lost three of my children when I was 19 years old to a bunch of lies that still haunt me to this day. Only God knows the truth of what went on. During this time of trials, I prayed everynight. I did not have a place to go when all this stuff happened, because my family was in Texas and I am in Indiana. I slept anywhere and with anybody I could, just to have a meal and a place to sleep.

I was drinking and doing a little bit of marijuana. My big thing was drinking. On my 18th birthday, I got so drunk I was gang raped and kept in a home for about a week, drunk and well you can guess the rest. Sorry, about this for the young ones, but if you are young and doing what I did, I hope you get something out of this.

My prayers were answered when the guys I was with all got arrested at the same time, go figure? How did that happen? I was able to leave the house with the hand of God leading me out. He saved me from 1. being killed, 2. getting aids and other diseases, and 3. not suffering for too long. Of course it felt like eternity.

I was also blessed any another way, I was pulling my hubby that I am married to now, in a truck and we were pulling an RV. I lost control and spun around on the Highway! I was staring right in front of a semi trucks headlights when I finally looked up. I give him all the blessings and thankfullness to this day, because if he would not have been protecting me that day, I would have been a sandwich between the RV and my little truck I was in. I cry when I think of that day.

Right now I am struggling with all my faith. Since my dad died, I wonder what is the right religion and what is the right church. I think God has also directed me here to this site to see, that he is still waiting on me and is still protecting me and my family. We always seem to get our bills paid and we get things to eat, not fancy things but enough. So this site is a sign of God himself and I was lead here. Believe me when I say this, because it is true. All things happen for a reason, and there is a reason for this site and all the wonderful people here. May God bless each and every one of you. I hope this is not too long. He is still blessing us everyday, see the little things and you will see the face and hands of God.
 

Amen Sis.... God is everywhere......In everything.......in everyone.......God bless you
 

I just found this Jesus MySpace page yesterday, and I think that it is a great idea! I was reading people's comments, questions, and prayers, and yours spoke to me particularly. It can be very hard sometimes to figure out where we fit into the circle of faith. Maybe my story will be of help to you. :)
Blessings, Julie



Here's the vision that I had:
I was living in Illinois, almost ten years ago, and we had been going to the Baptist church in the little town where we lived. I was unhappy at the church; much of the doctrine they preached did not fit with my beliefs. I went out for a walk, and started praying about my frustration. I felt like I was not truly at home in any of the churches I had been to recently, and I asked God who was right.
I saw a rainbow circle, with a brilliant white light at its center. I somehow knew that God's throne was inside the white light. I began to examine the rainbow of color more closely, and I realized that it was comprised of all of the major churches in the world. I saw the purple as the Catholic church; and shown that their greatest strength was their reverence for God. The red was the Baptist church; their fire was a passion for converting people to Christianity. I don't remember all of the colors relation to denomitations, that wasn't the point of the vision. I do remember that the Methodist/Presbyterians were green and Yellow for new growth and vitality.
I did see that there was no one denomination that was in all of the colors at once. This was because each denomination has weaknesses - Catholic-only communion, for example.(non Catholics are not welcome to partake)
God showed me that His Church was all-inclusive. He didn't care so much about where a Christian was in the circle, just that they were there somewhere, worshiping Him as they understood Him. He told me that it didn't matter where I was in the circle, just that I was there, standing where I was most comfortable.
I later found a description of a rainbow circle in the Bible. I can't remember if it was in the book of Daniel, or where. But there was a vision of the same circle, without my perception of it-of course! God moves in mysterious ways...
 

I have found out that it is the relationship and not the religion. What a wake up call! God does work in mysterious ways, my update is that I had to get out of a bad marriage to be blessed. Once I was kicked out of my home when my soon to be ex and I had a fight (he was seeing another woman and told me he no longer loved me), I moved in with a friend. Things just starting snowballing from there. I got a full time job, I met my new fiance who is also on a quest of his own to know the Lord, ( and he reminds me of going to God in our difficult times), I have met and have a start of a relationship with my 20 year old son whom I have not seen since he was 4. The biggest thing of all is that I feel good about my relationship with God and with my faith growing everyday I can see a bright future. I am thankful for Ray, he respects me like no other man has ever did in my entire life, it is a strange thing to adapt to but I am working on it. We both have been through hard times and we understand each other. It is nice to have someone to read the bible with and pray with. God is Good!!! I liked your vision. I will read the book of Daniel to see if I can find the passage. The big thing in my life is knowing I have my father beside everyday. God does take care of his children, we are in his circle.

ZG
 

i dont really know how to start...im 17 years old, and i first became a Christian in middle school. i didnt become serious about God and Jesus until 9th/10th grade. I never really had anything shake my faith until these past few years, when i first begin growing up and having new experiences. I dont really have a story to tell except for this: God has done soo much for me in my life, more then i even realize. and while sometimes i dont know why something happens or even how it could happen, i always try to remember that God has a plan for us and everything will be all right, as long as you trust in Him. It took me a while to come to this realization, but im so glad i finally did. God is so truly amazing and im so glad He is now a part of my life. I have met so many awesome and amazing people through Him, and i am so thankful everyday for the life He has given me. Thank you Lord.
 

B-SOLO, WHAT A GREAT STORY!! I'M GLAD YOUR STILL HERE!! YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT TO SHARE!! KEEP ON DANCING!!!
 

Abuse and more Abuse! Than I came to know you! My father in heaven showed me that He loves me for who I am and that No one has the right to judge me BUT Him. I now know there is love WITHOUT pain and that I AM His beautiful daughter! I thank Him each day for the gifts he has given me and the air I breath. So, brothers and sisters PLEASE remember He is our final Judge and He will always forgive us if we ask. He pulled me out from the bottom and He can do the same for YOU!!!! He is waiting for you to talk to Him.
 

I was born and raised by my mother, who is Christian, and my father who claims to be Christian. I grew up learning the Bible stories like any other Christian child. But I think my realationship with Jesus has been so much more. My dad is abusive. Ever since I can remember he has beat me. He left my family when I was 10. I am now 13, and I am still forced to see him. He continues to beat me. I have an athiest friend who once asked me where Jesus has been when my dad beats me. I simply told him "He has been by my side the whole time." And I know that this is true. All those times that the pain is so bad that I just want to die, I know that He is carrying me, until I can walk again.

I keep telling myself that there is a purpose to everything. But right now, I'm not quite sure what my purpose is. That is what keeps me going though. I want to change someone's life. It doesn't have to be in a big way, but it is my prayer that I can make someone's life a little better, even if just in one small way. Maybe one day I'll look back and say "So that was my purpose. Maybe I'll never know. But I do know that I have a purpose. And I know that Jesus lives. And it is these thoughts that give me comfort.

It doesn't mean that everything is okay though. Because it's not. The beatings continue, unceasingly. But I know that one day, everything will be okay. If not in this life, then maybe in the next. I long for the day when my Lord and Savior will draw me close to His chest, hold me, and let me cry. But for once in my life, they will not be tears of sorrow or pain, but of joy.

"In the moments when no earthly words can take away your sorrow. And no human eyes can see what you're going through. When you've taken your last stand. Done all that you can do. He will lift your heavy load. He'll carry you."

May God bless each and every one of our aching hearts.
May He give us joy and lift our sorrow.
May we each follow faithfully in his footsteps.
 

oh my gosh claire that is amazing you are so strong and i cried when i read this you sound like such an amzingly strong girl and i dont knwo you but we are sisters in christ and i love you i know that sounds crazy but if you are as into jesus as i am you cant help but love people and even though your dad is abusing you you should pray for him and love him and i know it is hard but you will get thru it i am 15 and my mom used to beat me and i remember having those feelings but i didnt realize that jesus was standing there with me and i thank god for people like you who are strong in faith and i promise just eeping moving forward jesus is always with you have a blessed life i love you!
 

I know that your story about yourself is over a year old, but I want you to know that there are people out there willing to help you in your situation. Your father should not be allowed to see you if He treats you in that manner. I was married to a couple of abusive men for several years. I feared for my children, along with myself, but I would allow myself to be hurt just to protect my children.
I am glad that you rely on God to help to carry you through what your father is putting you through, but please, for your sake, tell someone in authority about the beatings.
You deserve better. God would not want you to go through what is happening to you. He is our Savior and the One that carries us through our times of trial and pain, but He also gives us the strength to help ourselves. There is help available for you, all you have to do is have faith and ask for the help, before you are seriously injured or killed.
May God always carry you through your times of trial and pain, and let Him be with you as you reach out to others for help. God bless you, child. I will be praying for you!
 

I know that you wrote your story over a year ago,but I just read over it a little,as I was amazed to see a myspace with jesus!I think its awesome!My name is christina eastwood and I am 31yrs old,I've been married now for 7yrs,thanks to god for a wonderful husband,I've never known good relationships until I met him and his family.I am concerned to know how your life is going now and most of all your relationship with god?I've got a tremendous testimony myself.I am definitly a strong women in faith and prayer for jesus and only by his grace because apart from him we are nothing of ourselves.I've been through alot but I believe we have a price to pay for annointing power from god and the gift of intercession for others.If we don't share in the same sufferings of christ then how will we share in his glory?We have to have the character of christ.I know that I go through alot of the same things jesus went through ,I guess that enables us to feel the hurt he felt to understand his love and ways better.I am a very deep thinker and christian.I am Apostoilc,Penecostal to be exact.Of course I didn't start out there,but as I sought the face of God he led me to the places he wanted me to go.I never did have a mom or dad in church.I can't say that my mom or dad has really ever been involved in my life.I have had to figure that out,me and Jesus.To look back on my life now is complete darkness,until I was right with god and filled with the gift of the holy ghost with the evidence of speaking in tongues,I didn't know life.(acts2:38)I was also baptized in the name of Jesus 6yrs ago.But I think the lord for my life now!I would like to speak to you on a friend level,maybe we could help eachother,there is power in unity.Let me know if you would like to add me as a friend.My email address is christina_eastwood@yahoo.com,I will pray for you.
 

Wow you are an amazing child of God. I think you have a huge purpose in this world. I am 33yrs old and you are way ahead of me in my walk with the Lord. I am going to pray for you little sister. Take care and may God Bless You.
 

you have helped someone! and you will continue to help people. your athiest friend ... whether or not they want to face it.. but you have planted a seed that might save their life someday! God bless you! Remember how beautiful you are in his eyes! you are desired, my dear! Keep pushing thru. He will never leave you!
 

Claire-
Your story reads as my life story as a child. Thank you for helping me see that I am not the only one. I have had a rough time finding my place with God. Because of someone I met through My Space, I have been brought back into the arms of the Lord. I feel as if he has his arms around me and letting me know that my pain will go away, and that I will be able lift my sorrow and find trust and love again.
Thank you again, for letting me know I am not alone.
May god place his hands over your heart, and heel you from pain.
My prayers are with you
Leslie/Texas
 

I've put myself through some things. I left Him but He stayed by me. I'm still here...a lil scared cuz we're being persecuted. In a world of self-exhorters, we're called to be humble? I didn't understand, but it's becoming clear. I'm just a poor stranger My hope is in the One who saved me and prepares a place far greater than this place. I let go of Christ long ago....and He still hasn't let me go. He is so merciful and I pray you will recognize his love. Hit me up...I have a lot to say but not much time in one sitting. Jus message me, I'd love to share Him.
 

I'm 49 years old so I have a lot of stories. But I'll just say a couple of things. I did grow up among Christians and I am sure I trusted in Christ when I was really young, but didn't really live for Him. I really turned my life over to Jesus when I was 19, but had a lot of ups & downs & battles with the flesh. I have to say that the Christian life is that, constant battles between living for Jesus and living for your self.

I met my husband in jail. He was there as an inmate, and I was volunteering with the educational program, but my dad was doing Bible studies. We ran into each other there, and I did not want to talk to him when he tried to ask me a question. I thought he was hitting on me, but he really just needed to know where the Bibles were kept. He thought I was a snob, I though he was a loser. We actually got to know each other a lot later, after he was out of jail, had gotten saved, and gone through a Christian rehab program. He had a few ups & downs himself, but I'm thankful to say were a (sort of) normal Christian family now.

His testimony is here: www.stories.org.br/jailbird.html and I know HTML is disabled, so the link doesn't come up, but the story is too long to cut & past here.

Jesus is for everybody - rich, poor, educated, illiterate, American, Arab, Asian, European, Latino, and African. He's for businessmen & women, for drug addicts, hookers, pimps, thieves, politicians, fishermen, students & teachers. He died for all, and he does take you where you are when you come to him.
 

Where do I begin
I lost sight of God when I was very young, I grew up in a family of 2 brothers and 5 sisters, I lost my mother when I was 7 due to alcohol and watch my father day in and day out drink him self to sleep-due to the pressure he now faces to raise us all on his own. My family was not close at all. I had a best friend Anita Miss who was the one that brought The Lord into my life, she would pray with me and help me understand the Lord and her and her family where always there for me, as a blessing from God, to help me grow as an individual and a Christian.
My life again went for a downward fall, I lost my father due to cancer, my step family walked away from me after my father died, I was in a new state...alone...I strayed from God again, asking why? Why am I being put through so much so fast?
I went through a marriage and divorce. We attended chirch weekly but did not live as Christians.
Now here I am a single mother of three beautiful children, I used to cry my self to sleep always praying to God that I would give my children a better life, with no abuse or addictions. And I have done that-
Through my marriage and my divorce I attended church, but recently I was going to walk away from my faith, till I met someone her on my space, whos son and best friend sang word of faith that toughed my heart. I sat there and listened to a youth minister that reached out to me without him knowing it. I knew God had a plan for me. A reason that I was to be there that night. I walked away from that concert, and serivce with a new dance in my heart, and the Lord was leading that dance. I have come to realize the Lord has a reason for everything. I am just asking for prayer for strength that I may find my direction. I pray that I may become a Christian that the Lord will be proud of. I have had so much hurt in my life. Lord please place your hands over my heart and take this hurt away so that I can trust again....... and find true faith.
Leslie
 

I pray that the Lord answers your questions and gives you direction. God Bless You for sharing your story.
 

"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." - II Corinthians 5:17

This is my testimony. It is another real life success story for my Most Precious God Almighty. It is not a story about a person from the Bible. It is a story about a person living life in this current day and age. I was born on the 11th day of September in the year 1971.
Sometimes people try to put God "in a box," that is to say, they rationalize and dictate what God will and will not do or what He is capable of. I say that God can do anything at anytime He chooses to do so. This story is modern day proof of that. He is the same God now as was true for Adam, Abraham, Jacob, Noah, Moses, David, Solomon and so on.
The story is initially written in 3rd person, so that maybe a reader could insert his/her name into the story. I know that I am not the only person with a story like this, so hopefully it will be of help to someone. It is also my hope that this testimony will further represent the Greatness of God, what He did/does for me and what He can/will do for anyone who receives The Truth.
Please know that this story does not have a happy beginning. It begins chock full of sadness, hatred, depression, guilt....its beginning is full of darkness. However, do not be alarmed, as this story concludes with as happy an ending as any story ever told!
All Glory to God!!

In Christ,

Daniel S. Byrd
Caryville, Tennessee




"Down With the Old Man, Up With the New"


Where would he begin? He knew that much of the 90s were actually a blur to his mind's eye. The recent email conversation with a friend was fresh on his mind. It had been 16 years since they had last spoken and the friend had requested that he share with her how his life had been since they last spoke. He struggled to gather his thoughts while staring at the computer's monitor. Initially, only negative thoughts and bad memories came to mind, but with the knowledge of where he was now and how he got there, he was encouraged to dig deep in order to reveal the truth of his life and the Glory of how God can work. The fascinating truth of how one could be involved in a magnificently orchestrated plan beyond one's own recognition still brought a smile to his face. Though he had made more mistakes than could be calculated, he was at peace. That most satisfying peace that everyone desires and searches for their entire lives...he had it!

It was the summer of 1989 and like many fresh high school graduates; he had plans of tackling college. However, his utter lack of maturity in the company of his good-time buddy Jim Beam, pretty much destroyed these plans. Having what he deemed as "fun" seemed to have taken top priority in his life, much to the dismay of his parents. Though yielding plenty of potential, he only completed about a year of his first round of college. He was still perplexed to this day at how an opportunity such as a free education (as his parents were footing the bill) could have been cast so easily to the side, like rubbish, as if it had no importance or relevance whatsoever! It irritated him even further when recalling that this was only the first of many attempts to follow through on his initial plans of getting a college education. He remembered the day when he read the newspaper listings for recent college graduates from the local university to find many of his friend's names listed. "That was supposed to be me," he had thought. He had started college three times already, only to end up dropping out every time. It was at this point that the reality of how he had really blown it started to set in.

Four years had past for the young man. What had he been doing while his friends were completing the college task and he was dropping in and out of school like an unwelcome neighbor? At 21 years of age, he had pondered this thought. "I have been drinking booze, smoking pot, chasing girls and playing rock-and-roll in bars." Instead of accepting responsibility and taking action, he grew bitter and justified his choices within the opaque dreamland that had formed within his mind. He supposed that learning to play guitar had been the only constructive thing he had accomplished since high school. Maybe it was a mixture of the drugs and alcohol with his tendency to fantasize, but he honestly thought that he was bound for "rock-stardom." Hilarious! Sadly enough, he put more effort into practicing guitar and songwriting than he had his entire school career. Most waking moments were spent with a guitar in hand. He now believed that if he had put the effort into college that he had into music, he might currently be staring at a monitor within the Oval Office! Oh the visions of grandeur! Yes, he had become quite the accomplished guitarist. Yes, he had also composed countless songs which displayed his talents as a tune-smith
 

Who is Jesus to me?

For me it took going down some roads that led to nowhere. Many are those roads.

I don't have to convince you of the space in your heart that feels empty. We all try to fill it with something. I could go into the specifics of MY story, but the end is all that matters.

Jesus will NEVER leave me. He's never left you, He standing at the door and knocking. Right. Now. When I first fell in love with Jesus, it was like a new romance, and I couldn't get enough. I never thought that I would ever feel anything other than adoration for him. But then it happened. Doubt. Fighting the doubt made the trip even longer, because we all must face doubt. That is our faith. Faith is the substance of things not seen. We must have a reason for our hope. Not just feelings.

This period of doubt is called the 'wilderness time'. There are many examples in the bible of the great heroes of faith going through this. Daniel, Abraham, David. They all had one thing in common. They took their doubts to God! They wrestled with God. That's amazing and totally missed in our culture.

For me it was a very painful time going through the wilderness period, and some people lose faith entirely (Matthew 13:20) during times of doubt. Cling to the words in the bible, and the broken pieces will be made new and stronger.

The stage that comes next, but always was, is Abiding Love. Living with Him each and every day. Taking up the shield of faith, which is able to quench all of the fiery darts from the evil one. (Read Ephesians 6:11 on the armor of God) Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world. Jesus is the Way, Truth, and Life.
 

my story with Jesus is up and down. it's like a roller coaster. you work hard at it to get to the top of the hill and you mess up and come crashing down real fast. i love jesus more than anything. without that relationship with Him, i would go crazy. if you don't know jesus, than you are missing out on the geatest thing ever. there will be high and lows, but there are so many blessings that he will bestow on you, but like all relationships, you have to work on your end and be faithful to him. jesus saved my soul back in january. he is my lord AND savior. it has been hard, but i would not be where i am at with out him. i love him more than anything.

steve cowan
 

thank you so much for this

i've been going through a really rough time lately

all that i thought could go wrong has
and more


today was a particularly hard day
so i was feeling sorry for myself
and i logged on
and i saw jesus as my .1 friend
and i thought i'd go read someone's story
read how horrible other people's lives have been
so i could stop feeling sorry for myself

but i think finding this was so much better

i've saved it to my computer for days like this

thank you
 

claire, your story reminds me of Joyce meyer' s story. She too was abused by her father. If you can go to her website joycemeyer.org and read her story. I was at her conferences and she talked about how she wondered why God was putting her through all this and why he did not stop it. I will keep you in you in my prayers. I know it has been awhile I hope you update us here on how you are doing and remember, God never leaves us. I went through some terrible things too. I am 39 and I am in a better place. We all will never stop lifting you up in prayer. God will deliver you from this pain, I believe that. Stay strong and never give up on God. He loves you and he does know what you are going through.
 

God Bless your heart, Claire! I am thankful that I never had to go through what you are dealing with. That song/video "concrete angel" makes me cry everytime I hear it. I pray that God will open your dad's eyes to what he is doing. He was probably abused as a child, who knows what inner deamons he carries around. Just know that someone out there does care- Jesus AND me. Life does get better- I promise. Never let go of Jesus...if God brings you TO it, he will bring you THROUGH it.
 

Well...I don't really have one of those WOW stories that you always hear about..My name is Michelle, I'm 22 years old..I was saved when I was 17 years old. All throughout high school i was one of those people that picked on everyone..It didn't matter who you were..I picked on you and I was mean and I didn't care at all whos feelings I was hurting. Now..I didn't do any drugs or anything like that and I didn't drink. I was just really mean. Then, one day my cousin Jennifer invited me to go to the church her mom was working at as a secretary with her...I went on a wednesday night and had a blast..Not because of the snacks and stuff but the music the worshipping. It didn't hit me until about the 3rd wednesday that I went that I needed to get into church. So...After going to church a few wednesdays I decided to go on a sunday and I even liked it. SO..I joined the church and was Baptized October 7, 2001. And I stayed at that church up until last year. If I hadn't of found Jesus I would not of found my husband whom I've been married to since June 3 of this year. Ever since I was saved I've seen everything a whole new way. Though there have been times that I have fallen and haven't wanted to get up. Being a christian is a tough ride because you get mocked, laughed at, and ridiculed even when you don't know it.
 

Dear Jesus/God (Same thing)-- You know EXACTLY what is in my mind, heart, and soul; so I don't need to write any words here on the computer to "witness" to how much I love and adore, and honor and praise YOU. Let's just say that YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, AND YOU KNOW IT! YOU DESERVE NO LESS FROM ANY OF YOUR SERVANTS ON EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!! For the rest of you who want to get a "testimony" from me personally-- simply read my profile, or ask me to be your friend-- I would be VERY honored to know you all, and as Jesus commands-- I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU, MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS-- NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, OR WHERE YOU ARE FROM!! Love and sincerity from the heart, Lana :) XOXOOXOXOOOXOXOXOOXOXOOOOXOOOXOXOOOXOOXOOXOXOOXOOXOOXO
 

I loved God all my life and was raised in a Christian home. With the exception of my parents' divorce, my childhood was happy. But I buried the pain inside from the divorce and never dealt with it. I started struggling with my sexuality around 10th/11th grade or so and everything starting resurfacing. I was drinking, smoking pot and dabling in other drugs. I was going to church and to church events, but I'd "change" for a little bit but then go back to my pain. After I got out of high school and moved off, I fell out of church and farther away from God. I don't really know why but I built up a wall between me and God. I was convinced that I could not be "Christian" and gay, which I knew I was. Pain had hit me in different areas and I continued to build up the wall. The farther up the wall got, the deeper into pain and trouble I got. I lived in total darkness (drugs, drinking, ect.). Things kept happening and I thought about God but I rarely prayed. Then for some reason I don't really know why I just started praying to God and asking Him to show me the way with my sexuality. I prayed and asked God back into my life, that lasted temperarily. But during that time I really searched myself and found that sexuality is not something you can change or control and God showed me, I believe, that He loved me and accepted me. He knew me and created me. Why would He create me to be something that He hated? I fell again, just a little closer to the goal this time. Finally, a good friend of mine got very sick and God worked a miracle by bringing her back to us and saving her. Through that and watching God in her life, I finally gave my life completely to Him. I have been praying daily and am stronger in the Lord right now than I ever have been. And yes, I am a gay Christian. I'm writting devotionals and speaking to people about God. I love my life, for the most part and God is my rock.
 

i am a seventeen year old mother of a absolutely beautiful little 1 year old girl that God has blessed me with and yes i know it probably wasnt Gods plan for me to go out and have sex before marriage and everything but he has most certainly blessed me with her and i can stand here today and say that after having her i have made a complete 180 she has helped me see that there is so much more to live for in life and living like a fool sneaking out and drinking and smoking was stupid and about a month ago one of my very close friends died at the age of 24 from Cancer and pneumonia and he helped me see that life is way to short and u cant continue to put off what u need to do to be closer to God and with all credit given to God i am a reborn again christian and i owe it all to God and his powerful work! ~One Love~
 

First I would like to say that I have read some of your stories and I am deeply touched....I have been going through since the tender age of 4 years old...it started out as a big eyed little girl who knew nothing but what she was taught by her mother and grandmother....I was the second to the oldest and had a little sister under me but not until I was six years of age did she come along....My life was full of pain and hurt and no understanding of what was happening to me....All I knew was that I was being hurt physically for what....I am not going to paint the big picture because of my book that I am about to finish writing....I have been in a womans world since the age of 4 years old....now there are things that took place in my life since then that will be in my book and will be talked about because what I was told by GOD is that what I went through was not for me it was for someone else....Now for a while I did not understand what that meant...Whey would I have to go through all of this turmoil just for someone else....I have been raped, and domestically abused by my childrens father as well as me domestically abusing him back.....I was homeless for a total of 8 years....I mean at 17 years old I was sleeping under bridges and in abandon buildings....It had nothing to do with drugs or prostitution because I have not done any of that......I was angry and evil and didn't care about killing or hurting anyone who was in my way.....I was raped by a man who knew me and I had know Idea who he was....but yes it was Satan...Now Satan is very real....before I get into that back to my past living situations....I walked the streets with gang members who knew that I was homeless and they had my back.....My son was born in 1987 and he was born depressed and stressed because of the situation I had been going through with my children's father family...they were abusive and judgemental and liars and all kind of things that has come out of the closet.....They didn't like me then and they don't like me now....that is only on his mother side......His father side they are more cooler than that...and maybe they do like me I am not really sure but it don't matter because I am still who I am.....But my children and I have lived in our car for two years and I have lived under train tracks and all kind of stuff...Never prostituted and never sold drugs......I dranked and cursed and fought like crazy....Well as I got up in age I knew that I had a calling on my life since I was a child.....I have been singing all of my life, and I have been writing since I can remember.....GOD blessed me with 3 talents...GIFTS: Prophecy....Evangelism......Singing.....I am who I am now by GOD's GRACE......I have been through so much in my life that GOD has granted me a chance to be the last of his chosen ones to bring his children to him....I am SAVED AND FILLED WITH THE HOLY GHOST.....I love GOD more than this life X infiniti....I have a work to do and I have to do it...GOD told me himself.....Make no mistake that he will talk to you....he don't need noone to do it for him.....He told me that I was his mouth piece and that I had souls to bring to him and I am going to do it......he told me that he created me for a reason....He told me that he allowed me to go through some of the things you heard about because that was my job...I was put here to be a testimony and to show someone else how to get through it......YES I ran from being a servant of his because I have seen the titles abused and people of GOD playing with him...so that makes them not people of GOD....I am here to tell you that Time is Winding UP....Jesus is coming back and the righteous will scarcely making it in....WILL YOU BE READY.....Don't think because you see someone speaking in tongues that they are going to heaven automatically because they are going to have to be living the life of christ....and just because you see people giving honor to GOD on TV shows and people claiming to have something but they are not living it don't think for a slight chance that they are exhaulted....GOD is looking for the willing and the ones who are willing to get down and do his his will and want to serve him....Yes it is okay to have a life and enjoy life but he needs to be first.....GOD saved me while I was going through a divorce....He told me to continue being a wife until he said other wise....but because i wanted to please him I did and he allowed me to get out of that abusive situation on both parts without being and adultress....I am in love with GOD and can't get enough of him.....I pray daily and want to be more closer to him....I wish that I could continue but going to have to stop....not trying to start another book....but one thing and read this carefully...

THERE IS SOMEONE WHO IS GOING TO READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM SAYING IN BETWEEN THE LINES AND ON THE LINES....GOD HAS A WORD FOR YOU AND HE WANTED ME TO TELL YOU THAT HE IS NOT GOING TO EVER LEAVE YOU BUT YOU MUST DECIDE WHO IS YOUR FATHER AND YOUR KEEPER....HE TOLD ME TO TELL YOU THAT HE LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT BUT YOU MUST SUBMIT TO HIM AND ALLOW HIM TO HEAL YOUR HEART....HE SAID THAT HE KNOWS THAT YOU CRY AT NIGHT AND THAT YOU FEEL LIKE AND OUTCAST AND A FAILURE.....HE SAID THAT IF YOU KEEP YOUR MIND ON HIM THAT HE WILL KEEP YOU IN PERFECT PEACE.....YOU DON'T HAVE TO TAKE YOUR LIFE TO PROVE A POINT.....AND THE DREAMS YOU HAVE HAD IN THE PAST WEEK ARE DREAMS OF DECISION AND DREAMS OF PROMISE....HE SAID TO STAND ON HIS WORD AND HE WILL DIRECT YOU...AND FOR THE PERSON THIS IS ABOUT.....HE TOLD ME TO TELL YOU THAT WHEN YOU READ THIS YOU WILL KNOW THAT THIS IS FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T USUALLY READ THINGS LIKE THIS AND THAT YOU HAVE JUST HAD A DISAPPOINTMENT FROM SOMEONE WHO YOU THOUGHT WAS THERE FOR YOU....HE SAID YOU DON'T TRUST NO ONE BUT HIM......HE IS GOING TO BLESS YOUR LIFE BUT YOU HAVE TO ALLOW HIM TO...AND STOP TALKING SO MUCH TO PEOPLE ABOUT THINGS YOU DON'T WANT OUT......QUIT SPEAKING THEM INTO EXISTENCE.....YOUR HOUSE IS GOING THROUGH BUT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS STOPING PROGRESS BECAUSE YOU ARE ANXIOUS.....THAT WAS NOT THE HOUSE HE SAID TO GET OR YOU WANTED BUT YOU DECIDED TO SETTLE BECAUSE IT WAS TAKING TO LONG.....LET GO AND LET GOD HAVE HIS WAY......I pray that I have not offended anyone but it is all about my DADDY (GOD)......

Ouida...
 

you know ive been a christian all my life i went to a christian school until i was in the 10th grade when iwent to the school two blocks away, known as burkburnett HS.
i had many times where i started to doubt my own faith. there was one point in toime where i wanted to kill myself. and i hate to say it but i let the devil come between me and God. i became really depressed. and this is when i went to ta christian school, where it was so small that if you werent a christian everyone knew it. but everyone was a christian. i was surrounded by christians. and they loved God and did what thhey thought God told them to do. i had gone to this school since kindergarden i had known most of these people since kindergarden but i never bcame close to these people. i always thought it was sad that we saw each other every day and never became close. but it was then that i became depressed and thought i had no friends and turned my back on God b/c i didnt think he was going to use music in my future. i went to church camp and one of the pastors there told me i was a dying flower and that the devil was trying to kill me. and that just made me think you know why would yth edevil try and kill me then it hit me he wouldnt unless God really needed me. the devil doesnt attack people that God doesnt know he attacks people that God knows. theres a story in the bible where there are these sons that go around casting out demonsin the name of the God of Elijah. they didnt even claim this God to be theres but Elijahs. and they said in the name of the God of Elijah i command you to come out. and the demons spoke back saying i know God and i know Elijah but who are you. and the demons whent into the brothers. when God knows you the devil is going to know you. more than likely the way you know that God is using you is the fact that the dvevil is attacking you and uyou are going through a hard time. so when that happens done get mad at God get mad at the deviland thank God for using you when there werer others to use for ihs purpose.:)
 

My life was much like many. A life of sin and confusion. I was a child of emotional and sexual abuse for years. I was raised and tought to love by a man that was abused himself. It took me years and years to see this and to forgive the abusive hands he laid upon me for years. I went on a down hill spiral with drugs, sex and alcohol from the age of 16. I met my husband who was in a bar to watch a band. I was in that same bar to get as wasted as I could. The Lord chose THAT night to bring two people together that could not be more different from one another. (that was 15 years ago) My husband did not drink and was saved years prior to this night. The reason I share this, it to show that God works in ways that we would never imagine. We got together, he introduced me to the Lord. I struggled in the beginning with the changes He was trying to make in my life, but I gave Him my heart in which He still dwells. He went in and cleaned house. He forgave me and showed me what a true fathers love feels like. I would encourage anyone who is reading this <if you havent already> to invite Christ to dwell within your heart as well. Trust in Him and you will be amazed at what He can do in your life. I am now 40 years old, have been thru and seen alot in these years. I can look into the eyes of a young girl and see abuse if there has been any. I am sickened by it but all I can do is pray. If you are a young girl or boy that is being or has been sexually abused, please reach out to someone and tell of whats going on. You need to do this NO MATTER what the abuser is telling you.

Feel free to contact me if you would like to talk. I would be happy to listen to you.
You can reach me at my e-mail address: Nekoijah@yahoo.com

I pray that everyone who is reading this post knows the Lord or will know Him very soon. Don't wait.... He is there for you, just ask Him in.

Priase be to God!
In Him,
Mary
 

I'm a 27 year old mother of 4. I always said I wanted to be a mommy but was scared. I grew up in a very abusive home with my mother step father and my 2 sisters. I didn't even meet my real father until I was 17. A battle my mom still struggles with. We did not practice any kind of religon in our house. We went to church for weddings. That's it. My stepdad fianlly beat me for the last time at 14. He and mom separated and we moved to Atlanta to be close to my moms girlfriend. They stayed out all night almost everynight and I woke her every morning to go to work. I was my baby sisters mom. I ran away from home at the old age of 15. I swore that I would have everything I needed within the month. Needless to say that didn't happen. I slept everywhere from friends houses to cars and even a lot of night in the woods. I never knew to ask for Jesus' help. I had already lost my virginity at 13, drank alot, and smoked pot. I lived for 3 years with a boyfriend who was abbusive more to himself than me. I got a job a waffle house at 16 and was saved for the first time in my life at 17. It didn't last long. I didn't anchor my life with Him. At 19 I met my now husband. He knew our future. I was so bad on drugs I wouldn't sleep for days. Then I would just smoke and drink and sleep for 2. He finally stuck me in front of a mirror and made me look at myself. I couldn't beleive my own eyes. We moved away and came back a few months later. I shortly after got pregnant with my first daughter. She re-sobered me. I had my second, we got married and I started using again and bartending all in a few short months. Found out about our 3rd child and gave it all up again. We bought a house with the Lord's help. I of course found people to supply me again. I was hiding my drugs from my husband. But he would join me every weekend or so. I got pregnant with my 4th. Went cold turkey for the forth time. After she was born I started drinking again. That always led me to more. God had His eyes on me. In January 06 my husband and 4 year old daughter were in a car wreck. They were blessed. She broke her collar bone and he broke his leg. He spent a long time leg up on our couch. He only had one surgury. With 4 kids under 6 and a crippled husband I didn't know what to do. The night of the wreck I prayed and I have been ever since. We have been through alot more than this story together and apart. I have struggled this year and have lost a whole lot of 'friends'. Most of which are still in that lifestyle that I ran from. The hardest thing is trying to learn the Bible and Know that I have faith. I still have to reassure myself all the time that He is with us. I pray every night for the stregth and wisdom to break the cycle and the pattern of life that was set in motion before I could walk. I have so many questions and yet I have so much faith. I pray for all of you to hold strong to your faith as I hope you will pray for me. I still have a whole family that is lost. Please pray for them too! God bless!
 

I LIVED FOR ROCK N ROLL! My name is Rick Moyer, I live in Washington State on the coast. I have been a born again Christian for 21 years.

All you heavy metal fans, check this story out. It wasn't always this way. You gotta hear this....
I was never a religious person. In fact the only thing I worshiped was Rock n Roll.

I was not raised in a Christian home. My Mom and Dad were great people, but not at all church goers.I thought Christians were geeks and morons. They were weak is what I thought. I made fun of them.

I lived for ROCK N ROLL. I had all the albums that a guy could want. I was really into OZZY and Van Halen. I didn't go a day without Iron Maiden and Judas Priest. Ronnie James Dio was one of my faves. I loved the power that heavy metal music gave off. The louder the better. I lined my bedroom with album covers. You name it I had it. And I listened at high VOLUMES!!! I even learned how to play heavy metal guitar.

AC/DC was also one of my favorites. My friend Mike and I went to a Journey and Brian Adams concert in 1983, we loved the harmony and the incredible music that came from them. Rock n Roll was my God. I loved it and I lived it. Then something happened to me that would change the rest of my life.

I always tried to date the pretty girls, and it always seemed that when they would finally end up going out with me they would turn out to be Christians!! It happened several times. They kept giving me Christian Rock n Roll. Stuff like Larry Norman, Rez Band and Petra. I would listen to it, but I still didn't know what to think about Jesus.

I used to do sit ups to Diary of a Madman by Ozzy. I loved his style. I had no idea what he stood for. I didn't even care at the time. It was later that I realized what was happening to me. Nothing was to hard and crazy for me.

My uncles used to smoke pot with me, they also introduced me to pornography. I was popular in school, but there was a side of me that people didn't know.

The end of my Senior year in High School, my best friend told me to take a hike, my girlfriend said I was a jerk and to top it off soon I would be on the bottom of the heap in my first year of college. I freaked out. I tried to listen to more music to ease the pain, but it didn't work. Iron Maiden let me down, Ronnie James didn't satisfy my soul like he used to.

I actually took my Led Zeppelin album and spun it backwards on my turntable. I had heard a program that told if you did that to Stairway to Heaven that you would hear satanic messages.... well it scared me half to death. Not only did I ruin my needle, but the hair on the back of my neck went straight up when out of my speakers came "there's no escaping it... oooooo!" I was shocked. I did more research and found that I could even reproduce the said satanic phrases by singing the song acapella on a reel to reel tape deck and putting on backwards. Wild man....

I finally popped a Black Sabbath tape in my tape deck on a Sunday morning and drove to the Presbyterian Church. My stereo was huge, and in my Ford Pinto, it rocked! I snuck out of the house so my parents wouldn't know where I was going. I enjoyed my time there, but I didn't find God until later. They actually had me working with the teens, and I didn;t even know God. Just as I had begun working with the youth group at the church I got a call from Jill Nicholson from the Puyallup YMCA. She was having a Christian Rock Concert and wanted to know if any of my kids wanted to come. I said, Rock? We'll be there!!! SO...

I took 20 kids to a Christian Rock Concert in Tacoma. I was totally shocked. It was the coolest thing I had ever seen. The opening band was so horrible that we almost left. When the main band took the stage my mouth dropped on the floor. The lights went out and the fog machine churned out it's atmosphere. Out of the mist came a guitar player who just JAMMED. Better than I had ever heard before. He was dressed in leather and a Harley shirt. I couldn't believe my ears. The band kicked in and for 20 minutes I stood stunned that Christians could rock so hard. The only Christians I had ever seen were geeks and bible thumpers. I was amazed. Darrell Mansfield, the lead singer, stopped the concert for a moment and asked the crowd to sit down for a moment.

THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN AT ANY OF THE CONCERTS I HAD BEEN TO...


I was surprised to see all the kids sit down. He was dressed in leather pants and a white T-shirt. His hair was long and stringy. He didn't look like a preacher. He started sharing out of the Holy Bible. He told how Jesus Christ had come to this Earth and died on the cross for us. He then told how the devil was a liar and wanted to see me in Hell.

He started talking about the bands that I listened to, he knew alot of them. He said that they were as desperate for an answer as anyone else. He told me that he had tried to commit suicide when he was younger, he turned his wrists out to us to reveal scars on them. Jesus had transformed this guy into a very cool person. He was so real.

Darrell finally asked us to pray. Man was I scared. He asked if anyone needed to get right with God. I knew I needed to. I wasn't about to go forward and pray with him. I said the prayer at my seat. Half of my kids went forward to pray. This is what I said,"Jesus, if your real, I need you. I ask you to come into my heart. Forgive me for all the stupid things I have done and thought. I believe you died on the cross for me and then you rose again. Be the Lord of my life and help me to live my life for you. Amen"

I said the prayer and no fireworks went off, but something did happen. I was born again. I had become one of them... a CHRISTIAN. OH NO!!!

I never smoked another joint, nor did I drink ever again. I struggled with pornography but thanks to God and other men of God who I have been accountable to, I am delivered of that as well. God is amazing. You don't try Him, you live Him.

God delivered me out of Rock n Roll and wrote my name on the Heavenly roll. He can do the same for you. If you ask him. Romans 10:9-13 "...If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead you will be saved!"

I still Rock, but now I Rock For Jesus!

Here are three things I reccomend to have a victorious Christian Life:
1. Pray to God everyday. Talk with Him

2. Read the Bible, a little each day, and do what it says.

3. Go to a radical onfire bible believeing Church. Not one that is stuffy and boring, but one where Jesus is alive in the people you see going there. One where they carry their bibles, and talk about their faith in public. One where people live what they preach.


Please if you need prayer or want to ask questions don't hesitate to email me. pr@christrocks.com

To visit this testimony with pictures go to www.christrocks.com/testimony

Have an awesome day, and remember to rock for Jesus.

Rick Moyer
 

Hi my name is Laura. I am 21 years old and Jesus has been my everything and the reason I am alive today. I was raised in an abusive household, my parents neglected me and my sisters. I tried to commit suicide at the age of 12, and that was the night I gave myself over to Jesus. I fell away from him in high school, I struggled with anorexia, and bulimia. I still battle with anorexia to this day even though I do not have the outward appearance of an anorexic. I battle with the mentality. I fell into drugs and alcohol. I came back to the lord earlier this year and now I am studying to be a minister at a bible college and I feel like I belong. Jesus never neglected me, I neglected him.
 

Hmmm...I only have one response to this...

Even the demons believe in Jesus and tremble. Do you realize that belief or disbelief in Him doesn't matter? I know there are many people who are ready and willing to show you that He desires a relationship with you. The weight you felt was probably Him tugging at your heart and rather than give into your heart's desire to follow Him, you threw Him away. Where do you find your peace and hope? If it's not in Jesus Christ, then you are living in vain. I pray He continues to tug at your heart and pursues you like a relentless lover. I pray He never gives up on you even though you seem to have given up on Him. When you are ready to turn around, He will be right there waiting for you...no matter how far you've run from Him.
 

well..i grew up in a disfunctional home..my mom was always mad or dipressed. I started using drugs when i was about 17 coke, pot..drinking..and all the while sleeping with boys..my dad wasnt around..i moved out on my own and stating smokin crack..sellin drugs..going out partying..i was even selling to my sisters..i found out my twin was useing needles and i cryed for days..that was just the begining of the guilt..to make a long story short..i didnt know what true love was..i couldnt trust no one..got busted and put in jail and on probation..my probation officer put me at the Gosple Mission in my town..cause i used to stay at my moms and i walked all over her and sold drugs out of her house so i couldnt go back there cause she enabled my behaivor..well i was only suppoe to stay at the mission for a coulpe of days until a bed opened up at a treatment center and while i was there i found out about Jesus and how much he loved me..the program at the mission was bible based and i learned about the bible and started applying it in my life i was delivered..theough his word from my ways and the ways of the world..ive been walking clean and sober ever sense ive fallen in love with Jesus he is faithful..He blessed me with my husband and now we have a son Isaiah who we can raise up in Christ..praise God for that he is constantly at work in us..life is hard..but he is faithful..your suffering will not be waisted in Christ..stay in his word and in prayer and you can get through anything..Be Blessed..Chrissy
 

i dont have alot to say.... i just love Jesus with all of my heart and i am nothing without Him. My life is Him. Any part of me that is not submitted to Him, i will submit it. There is something i want very much, but i am waiting to see if that is what God wants for me too. My heart is in quiet submission, although it hurts alot... i trust my Lord with all of my heart and mind and soul. The tears are worth it because my life is for Him. I am just in love with Him.
 

im 19. i live with my boyfriend. i have for over a year now. he did not want to live together before we got married. but i pushed my way into his house with a bunch of roommates. we bought our own place in march of 06. my mom has been saved fro 5 years now. i thought she was nuts. if God was so great and powerful why doesnt he just say it adn show himself to everyone? I did not understand why science has not proved everythign the bible says to be true. i beleived that some guy made up teh bible bacause he didnt know how things worked adn wanted to have something to beleive in. i alwasy beleived in God but not i like i should have. my grandparents and aunts adn uncles are all morman. i beleived i was not good enought to go to heaven. my mom loves christian rock music adn i dont knwo why but everytime i heard " i could only imagne" i would cry. after we bought our house i wanted to get married. i told tyson that it was wrong to God to do what we are doing. but wasnt going to do anythign about it. one day i went shopping with my sister (that my mom gave up when she was a baby to another family that we fought in march. praise God.) we were goign to church in the park that night and this sister is lds but for some reason she decided to come with us. pulling out of the parking lot i almost got hit by a car. 2 minutes later i did get hit. we were late to church in teh park. that day was aug 1st. 2006 the day i was saved and reborn. Something did not want me to be there. i cant talk about God or sing at church without crying. being saved is everythign my mom ever said it would be. me and my boyfriend have plans to be married. we have made ourselves right with God. he is saved and has been for years now. church in teh park was a wed the very next tuesday i jumped into a 16 week bible study on philippians. i have grown a great love for God. I know understand why he does what he does. in philippians paul says "follow me" im goul is someday to be able to say "follow me adn you will be follow Christ" i am far from perfect but i now know i can be. philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. i believe this to the fullest. I just want everyone to know that God is great. Thank you so much Jesus fro loving me so much to die for me. i have done so much wrong but you still love me and still chose me out of the world and saved me. i will try to live my life to honor you adn someday be able to say follow me adn they will be following you. thank you again. i love you. p.s happy birthdat this month.
 

"I never wanted to follow Jesus...He Rescued me" -Red Mountain Church This certainly applies to me.
 

I was always taught by my dad to believe "nothing you hear and only half of what you see". He has always been so bitter and unhappy, and this spirit cast itself to me at an early age. My entire family has had it's share of problems: infidelity, alcoholism/drug abuse, mental/physical abuse, domestic violence that resulted in death, etc....I never really attended a church as a child, but I did decide to get saved at around 8 because I thought it was the right thing to do. I dated an atheist in middle school, tried to have a baby by him at a young age, and really rebeled against my parents. I had gotten into the Dark Arts, reading books about death and conjuring the dead, and other books about spells, demons, etc...In reality, I was trying really hard to fit in somewhere with someone who would love me. I mean, I got love at home, but not a true love that I could really feel strong in. I always kinda hated Christians, because it seemed to me that the "preps" in school were the Christians, and they hated us, the White Trash. I had had numerous dealings with "Christians" and truthfully, wanted no part of them.
I rededicated my life for a short time in the late 90's, I had been married to a Christian since I was 17, but he has backslidden so I really didn't think about him being "Christian". Finding no church in our community that I felt comfortable in, I quickly backslid and stayed that way until May of this year. The Lord literally wooed me back to Him.I lost my job in May, where I had been working every Sunday for the past year. My husband had started at this church he had been bragging about, and he asked me to go. I would normally have said no, but for some reason (God) I decided that I was going to try it. I haven't missed a Sunday since. The difference is, I have never had a relationship with Jesus before. I never knew this, and this is something that you don't learn at church very often. He loves us so much, and wants to be close to us, but we won't let Him in! Now, I see the love and peace that I have been missing for so long, and it is given to me graciously and abundantly by my Father- who loves me more than I can ever comprehend.
For whoever reads this, if you haven't already, let God have a relationship with you! It is so simple; All you have to do is pray to Him to open up the communication between you. He is faithful and true to do this, this is what He created us for!
I can truly say that I will never backslide again. That would be like cutting ties with my mom or my dad. I have a relationship, not a religion. There is a HUGE difference!