HOW FAR
How far do I have to go?
To keep my sanity.
How far am I willing to go?
To keep you here with me.
You're mine, sometimes I see.
But we can't deny...that she has your heart.
And oh no! I said it wouldn't hurt.
But I think it's gonna cut me deep.
I said I wouldn't let it blind me from the truth.
But I'm afraid it's got a hold on me.
I thought I was at peace.
I thought I could settle for what it is.
When I came over I felt good...with a resignation that I understood.
And I could follow through on what we had agreed... a long time ago.
I couldn't let you out of my life
Because I couldn't handle it.
But if you let me, I would stay in yours...as long as you permitted me to.
I'll take the joy you give me when you make me happy.
But I'm slowly trying to stay on my side.
Just like in the beginning.
Cuz I can't stand to think my touch can be erased so easily...
...by someone else's memory.
But this is the way it's supposed to be.
I'm losing hope
But I still care.
And it did hurt, but I don't cry no more.
So many times I wished...you would've come and followed me.
So many times I wished...you would've never let me leave.
Trying so hard to make you see...
That I'm not like the others that you meet.
Guess certain things you can't change.
And we all have our destiny.
But I never forced you to say things you didn't mean.
Sometimes I wish you'd be strong enough to let the past go.
But sometimes I think this selfishness is lethal.
And maybe I'm forgetting that you still need her.
And who am I to take from you, what's in your heart, so deeply engraved.
I can only try to comfort you,
When I know your past is causing pain.
And when I know it's still very much a part of who you are.
I have to look the other way.
Putting myself to the side,
Just to be there when you cry.
Cuz I want you to lean on me and trust in me.
That even though I know you cry for her, I'll never leave.
You may be saying I'm too nice and you don't deserve...
Half of all the things I do for you.
You may be right and I may be wrong,
But I'll do most anything for your happiness.
Just so I can feel how I feel...when my heart jumps and skips beats.
All because I saw you smile... when you looked at me.
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Emotional
By Carl Thomas
Release date: 2000-04-18 |
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