so eventually i want to write a book called "A real toy"
its going to just be my ramblings and poetic thoughts
printed onto black and white paper,simple yet interesting.
heres some things that will be in it

"Today my t.v
offered god at half price.
"one million callers"
"7 billion dollars"

and today
I was told no
by a million dollar chimp

Im not marketable to the stupor
im not to pretty but i am a looker
get your money's worth while the crime is still hot
Im sorry you dont appeal
to our cause

your not posable.
your mentally indisposable
Theyll think about you when theyre gone
And we cant have them thinking too long
they might not see the flashing tits
the flashing signs
the flashing cars
the flashing
flashing
flashing
FLASHING
we reserve the right its ours
we reserve to take away yours

Maybe you could mop our floors
because our cunts are dry
but our fists are dripping wet
oh but dont forget its not us who hate you
it is most certainly them
its not like we controll it
please ignore the strings
Your just not marketable
among other things
we dont like your voice
its too loud and someone might hear
Might hear something other than our pumped up
end of the world story's
I mean come now
we sold 50 million copies last week
we cant ruin that
maybe in a couple of months
when...ya know your done with this sort of thing
maybe youd have a chance
I mean,its not likley
but if you could make yourself more
oh..i dont know
usefull
maybe
but not right now.
OH!
You could pretend to be
oh whats the word
nevermind it doesent matter,
maybe you could just pretend
Pretend
Pre-Tend
Pre    Tend
Pre
Tend
Pre Tend to our wishes
ya know,take care of what we want
before we have to ask
I mean its whats best right?
either that or its not happening at all
your just not socially viable.
we couldnt distract people from the truth
that most of your "people"
are bad
i mean we see that your nice,and good and all
But most of "you" arent.
right?
well it doesent matter if its correct or not
its what they believe
so its just easier that way
we dont think it needs to change
i mean it doesent hurt anyone
well..maybe you
but that doesent matter
cause
ya know
your not socially marketable and stuff."

""And I'm almost as empty as that smile on your face."

they dont want to see me but they have to see me cause im standing here naked infront of all of you
and im such a whore because i entertain idea's of a free thinking person who has more goals in life
than a night of fun with some broken stranger in a dirty hotel,with nothing to greet me
in the morning but the subtle hint of guilt that I am alone again.
and that dont want me to be alive,because i might teach other people it's okay to live
to live without cause,the truth is,im here,and im here on purpose i wasnt placed here by some
"alien being" im here,im human im REAL,im breakable,and im strong,and yes I,Me,the face that you
see and automaticly hate,cry and i do more than cry,i get angry too,sometimes i even cry when im angry
and me,the horrible thing that is invading your lovely world,i smile too,and i do more then smile
I laugh,i laugh because it's all that there is left to do after being angry and sad
i laugh because i need to,and i cry because i want to,such relief comes from temporary pain."