Wow, you're going through an incredibly rough time! I don't think this is going to get better over time. You need to talk to someone you can trust. Someone who can guide you through the pain until you can feel happy again.







 

Please remember one thing: God is always with us, whether we want Him to be or not. You're not alone, even if you feel you are. You matter to me as a fellow human being and I'm sure you matter to others and are not aware of it. As one who has contemplated suicide more times than I care to remember, I didn't and I'm glad because I found soon enough the old SIA axiom: Unhappiness is temporary; death is so permanent. Please get help as quickly as you can. Contact your hospital, a psychiatric or psychological service, your minister, someone you trust. But please, whatever you do, try to pray, and if you can't, just think about it. At ll and at l6, I tried suicide and thankfully failed because I wanted to live as much as I wanted to die. You're too valuable, too gifted, to be talking like this, but I'm glad you are talking and not doing it.
PLEASE LISTEN, GET HELP AND BE WHOLE AGAIN!





With you with absolute caring,





Francine
 

Been there, friend. If you mean nothing to your own husband it can be a hard thing to face. Thank goodness divorce is legal.






And if that is not it, remember that our death is not up to us. Putting your trust in the hand that controls our lives so to speak is sometimes all we can do. You must also trust that when you have hidden in your room for sufficiently long you will begin to feel like emerging again at last, like sun from behind clouds.