My December


How is your December going? What was your one like last year? When the winter comes, holiday and special occasions to celebrate—who stand next to you, was it someone special, was it your best one of your family or best friends, or were you all alone by yourself? My December supposed to be fun, there is my birthday anniversary, a semester break, long holiday for x'mas and New Year to share through it.

December 2005, I lost first perfect ex bf, Aaron, to someone else. Although he spent my birthday with me but it was just a pity one. I remember new year eve where we tried our best to make it up but some how it was just too late, because of our misinterpreted, because of not saying what we wanted from each other but felt sorry for ourselves for not being good enough to each other.

December 2006, I worked and studied 7 days a week, ended got home at mid-night on my birthday where my mom and my younger brother who already felt asleep, and cake made by dad had to be blown on the following day. My X-mas eve spent preparing for final exam and new year eve was at a wild party with strangers, no one I know there—even the host, I've never met him before but talked on the internet.

This December, it numb, cold, and confused. I can say I am not scared of being alone and through another December that full of excitement to everyone. But would not it be better to share it someone else, someone to be with on a birthday anniversary, someone to standing next to me in the picture with Christmas tree as a background, or one to celebrating when the new year come to.


And this December, I am more sensitive than ever…





"Is it me? Am I the reason people always leave? Am I the reason all these things keep happening to me? Maybe I'm just destined to be alone"—One Thee Hills.