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Adora BubbleHead



Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 33
Sign: Gemini

City: LONG BEACH
State: California
Country: US
September 26, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Life
...still.  I am, for some reason, still not happy.  I know I say that I am.  I'm very grateful for everything that I've been given, but there's a difference between gratitude and happiness.

I have this HUGE void in me that I can't seem to fill.  I want to shop because I know that'll for sure make me happy... I don't even think it matters what I buy.  I feel like I"m lonelier than I've ever been in life... and I kinda just accept that that's the way things are supposed to be for me.  Why should I feel that way?  I'm not sure.

I know that I'm the type of person who says she wants people around, but in all actuality, not really.  I just get soooo tired of disappointment.  I always feel like I want to connect with people, but when I do, I always seem to be let down, so why even bother to begin with?

I'm ANNOYED!!!... out of my skull.  Something has to change... probably my mentality... again.  I have to go play Bejeweled Blitz so I can figure it out... or something.
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Steve
Steve O

 
You seemed to have calmed down... on the outside.
Your fortune cookie says: Materialistic things will only bring you short-lived happiness, they always do, then the novelty wears off and you 'need' more, but all you end up with is debt, IOU's and a life full of crap to remind you how shallow one can be ... I've eaten plenty of those cookies before!
Being young, intelligent and beautiful are your curse, I can only imagine how many people try to get into your life because of your youth and looks without giving credit to your intelligence. Focus on your artistic side, your painting, your music and song writing, that will give you satifaction. Healing ties with friend and family will fill that hollow feeling...
Let my shut my mouth now I sound like a friggin horoscope.

 
Posted by Steve on September 27, 2009 - Sunday - 2:40 PM
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Adora BubbleHead

 
I only want to shop right now because I haven't been able to in a very long time.  A good majority of the time I'm not shopping for myself anyway... I'm selfless like that.  But as far as friends go... what friends?  I'm only gonna put myself out there so much.  I'm over friends... that's a two way street and I've done my part to try to maintain relationships, I'm the most forgiving person anyone could know, but I kinda just don't care anymore. 

So for just one moment, one day or whatever, I'd like to focus some of my own generosity on myself.

 
Posted by Adora BubbleHead on September 27, 2009 - Sunday - 3:00 PM
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jody
Jody P

 
an online game is not gonna fix it, it's just a distraction from it, that's what this online
experience is, a distraction from reality, same thing with shopping
For me there has to be that little piece of myself that no one can touch, we are only
human and we hurt too, protect your inner spirit, only let special people in to explore. 

 
Posted by jody on September 27, 2009 - Sunday - 2:41 PM
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Adora BubbleHead

 
Bejeweled Blitz is a sorting/organizing game, and it actually helps me sort my thoughts.  You get one minute to score as many points as you can.  I also equate it with earning potential.  So while it may be a distraction from reality for most people, it does something a little different for me. ;-)

 
Posted by Adora BubbleHead on September 27, 2009 - Sunday - 3:17 PM
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jody
Jody P

 
oh, than good for you!
 
Posted by jody on September 27, 2009 - Sunday - 4:45 PM
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*****BEX>DoLLfACE*****

 
Don't even trip, ur not the only one depressed as fuk. Thats life
 
Posted by *****BEX>DoLLfACE***** on September 28, 2009 - Monday - 2:14 AM
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Adora BubbleHead

 
Hey, hey... I never said anything about depression.  When I think of me being depressed, I think I want to slice my arm up or something.  I'm definitely not there... I hope you aren't either.  You should come over my house and come swimming one day.  the funny thing is that I remember when you used to give me a hard time... and for what?????

 
Posted by Adora BubbleHead on September 28, 2009 - Monday - 2:21 AM
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Mike

 
I really like this blog you posted I feel I'm going through the same thing.

 
Posted by Mike on September 28, 2009 - Monday - 2:14 AM
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Adora BubbleHead

 
Okay then, seems you gotta change your mentality too.  I think part of it is that I'm always in search of my twin, but alas, I was born unto this world alone, and so, it is my fate to always feel the loneliness from being born a single child under a sign based on duality. 

I can't tell you what your issue is, maybe I could, either way, I'm always here to listen... especially since I don't do much else.

 
Posted by Adora BubbleHead on September 28, 2009 - Monday - 2:32 AM
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