"it" is bad because, before something happened, before that was bad.

My mind doesn't concern itself with that category.

This is what it feels like to be organic.

Is it not safe to say that your mind is still in the loop?  Your mind never left the loop.  Your comment of being stuck in the loop is poignant if not superfluous.  It wasn't until you felt compelled to comment that you percieved the loop to be arbitrary.  But because you are experiencing the loop psychoactively, it is my deduction that you are the loop.  The authoritarian of consciousness.  You percieve.  Your perceptions react to your perceptions.  The power over yourself was so absolute as to be sickening.  Thus is the power of your mind, the loop.

Stating that you cannot work is tantamount to believing you aren't willing to be a bit mindless.

I'm in a Drew loop for sure.