So, I cleaned my room the other day and found some old
letters from a person whom hasn’t spoken to me for some time now. And it kind
of has me in a slumped mood, Thinking about all kinds of shit, mostly about my
past or people in my life.

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It’s not just the letters. 
Almost every song I have been listening to has brought back memories
from certain periods and certain friends…and it sucks.

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I’m trying to straighten up, this shit just holds me back
right now, and I know it.  Nevertheless,
all I want to do is go call certain people even though I know the outcome. Just
to hear voices, and in the hope they’ll stick around.

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I just don’t know what to do at this point, I’ve got a lot
to look forward to, but I just can’t let go of my past…ugh…

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Im going to smoke a cig