Hi Honey,

Well, if there is one thing I can say about you is...holy cow dat is one full closet. It's a wonder you've managed to keep the bones from those skeletons from falling out sooner and with greater impact. The knee bone is connected to the ...well y'know the next bone etc., so if you keep pullin em out eventually you'll get the whole picture and you really will be so "wowed" by it all. It's a shame that when we are young we have the strength to act on our convictions, but our convictions are not our own yet, they are of those who raised us, who influenced us up until the point when we first and finally truly open our eyes and say..holy shit is this what has been happening all around me while I've been here...have I been in a fog or what???? But really, you can't see it all at once because it would be too much and you'd not be able to manage it. Give it time my sweet. It will come into focus and then so much will make sense ...then you'll know what to keep and what to throw away.

Mental illness sucks because it messes with the ability to perceive accurately, or to respond appropriately, or a lot of other perceptual things, but what matters now is what ya do with what is happening. My best advice is not to do anything to huge until you feel like you're in a clear and calm state...not that "clear" state that comes with mania but a calmer sense and view of everything around you.

You truly are a remarkable woman. You will do something really important to impact the world while you are here on this earth. But you gotta gotta gotta give it time to come to fruition. Can't force it. When you get to that point where you feel truly as close to self actualized as you believe yourself possible and have been in that state consistently for ..well, I always use six months as my gauge, then you'll see your mission. Mines coming and I'm almost there.

I love ya honey. I miss you too. Stupid that we hardly ever see each other. Be careful out there angel, ok? Lots of creeps out there and alot of them just wait and lurk so please be careful, ok?