I sit and i ponder,
Like i usually do.
Fun times are being had,
Lives are being lived,
Love is being made.

All around me.

I...
Have so much i need to say.
Alas.
I have no desire to say it.
Apathy is my new friend.

I am tired.
Insomnia ravages throughout me.

When will its hold on me be gone?

I remember when insomnia was just another word.

I was...
Truly happy then.

I miss that.




Now...
All i care to do is star at the stars,
But i am slowly losing interest.

THIS IS THE LAST THING I EVER FUCKING WANT.

But it is indeed happening.


Those beautiful diamonds in the sky.

Whose bright gaze,
Remind me of those Green eyes i fell in love with.
Constantly changing in tint,
Just like my diamonds.

To those diamonds.

I am constantly with you.

And all of you as well.

I wonder,
Can anyone ever even imagine the vastness that space has to offer?

Lately,
I have had a sense about me.

I can't explain it.
Other than,
It seems as though im seeing my life,
Through someone elses eyes.

I can't eat.
I can't sleep.
(haha i never sleep)
My life has become mechanic.

As the gears turn,
The world spins.

Though i am so lost in this spinning plastique wold of mine.


2+2=5

Up is left
and
Down is October.

Perhaps those beautiful diamonds in the sky will show me the way.

Perhaps you will.

Until thus happens...
I

Shall sit.

In the sky with those precious diamonds.