I dove into it
Like the best stick
To scratch the most disingenuous itch
Pocketing for the ones
And the zeros
Chasing thought with exactitude
Harboring design
For the sake of function
Lost
I dove into it
Split the waters
Ferried myself from side to side
Kissed probabilities
Like the sweetest question
in the darkest prayer
Resolve fondles the mistakes tenderly
Because a machine doesn’t know the difference
You see crimes went to the cause
And attempted a solution
But deleting problems
Did not solve
puzzles
I tried THIS
I tried THAT
Did everything possible
Except rat-a-tat-tatting a thick head
On a thicker wall
And now
All wisdom can do is let go in the most unsatisfying fashion
A brain chases the exasperating tail
There MUST be something perseverance has not tried?
But there isn’t
Repetition stares at me
From a hollow mirror
And USEFUL is a world I champion
Even in the most pitiful state of inadequacy
Despair WILL embrace STUBBORN
As songs cling to a solitary banner of ineptitude
Hope worn to fluttering strings
On the smallest hill
every horse stamps its worry
"there IS no victory today"
it does not matter WHAT
BEST is perspective
for wherever you stand
is what you serve
my life holds this moment in cluttered mist
a world of understanding
in a purpose
better
not understood
we look UP for a reply
and the song
rings below
past remembrance
the mind finds answers it wants
and each truth is the down of a pillow
plucked from water's shedding
it is now
the answer to all existence
to life and time and worlds of pain you could never fight
is now
be
where you are
be
where you will never be again
a reason to yourself
a fortress that blinks at morning light
time has found us and freed distress
dive
keep diving
there is no expense to the gift
our reality is joy beyond the harm
do not repeat
I dove into it
Like the best stick
To scratch the most disingenuous itch
Pocketing for the ones
And the zeros
you have the means
do not skill your desires
and the way
to be found
is to never worry on being lost
because the ache you feel on arrival
is the kiss of GOD