just trying something different.....in a way, i'm copying hydra's style, but what i wanted was a way to express some anger.....and have it not be "the end of the world."  like if you can be angry and a smartass at the same time.....that means the poison is deflected. 

and i would LIKE to be able to write, without worrying about how crazy some may think it is....or think i am.  it's like being a bug that never gets out from under the microscope. 

 

Not quite sure how to respond here.Forgive me?
 

silly....this is a note to my sister....you don't  even  have a twat, do  you?  *grins*

 

 What have you done with Glass of Whine?
 

she went south for the winter

 

 

 

chocolate covered bees and a ballet slipper up a butt....now that is imagery!!!
 

heheehe....that last was a reference  to her always getting in trouble during ballet....never cared even then....

 

Sounds like the soundtrack that plays in my head. Except instead of douching, I think of washing my testicles. Dirty testicles are nothing nice. 
 

yes, i know what sweaty balls smell like.....  hehe.....and this is not "a note to me" though know how it can look like that.  what it is, though....is you know how like WaY after  the fact,  you think about what you COULD have said?  but i'm going to try and remember the "have YOU douched today?" question for anybody that asks me if i took my medication.  the other choice, of course, is to shoot them in the forehead.....and smile smile smille.....

 

I don't know twat to say.
 

 

lol....i thought, what the hell......


 

Although, a lot of this is confusing, yet amusing "Is there a restaurant that can feed you some HUMANITY?"  I like this line a LOT!  And BTW woman are NOT supposed to douche very much.  It is bad for them.  It take the natural things out we need.  The same things that keep you fresh and can even make you sick by doing so to much. 

OK, what is this? 

 

it's trying a new style a bit....a way of sort of fast-firing anger.....and it's me being pissed off at my sister, even though am not speaking to her right now anyway.  but i HATE people that think they have the right to sit there and ASK me if i'm "taking my medication".....that's total bullshit.  the only reason for that, is for the person to assert a type of authority over another.  so i came up with the idea for a response....to, instead of answering (since it's none of their business) ....instead ask them if they have been douching regularly.

yes, know all about the health stuff on it......the acid/base balance is something that shouldn't be dicked with (haha no pun intended)

 

You're a good poet!

 

thanks.....

 

Maybe, but then again, maybe not...  :)



 

you don't have to answer, unless you have been asking me if i took my meds.....*smiles for ma favorite monkey*

 

LOL...I knew...just couldn't resist...  :)



 

I like it! Rant, rant, rant, vent, vent, vent....it's good to get it up and out.  For me it is like emotionally vomiting to relieve the feelings of injustice and anger.  I like a good venting type poem, I think it is very healthy for the writer and the reader too.

 

riggin friggin.....you know, i would like to feel free to write more on various frustrations.....and it's so hard, because part of the whole being afraid of being locked up business, has always included an indiscriminate pretense of having some sort of redemption when practicing "restraint."  but truth is....the bastards have enjoyed messing with me, even when i am a pillar and an icon of restraint.  and i'm getting tired of playing mary poppins......

i think it's healthy, too....Hydra......

appreciate you letting me borrow your style there a bit......didn't go as far as i could, but am going to work at letting some things out....and at some point, stretch the wings on that side of things.  the repression is just unreal....all because the poor itty bitty dears will start screaming 'crazy" and pointing their fingers.....


 

If you see the vessel who carried me into this world (AKA stinking twat) again, smack her for me while you????
Awesome anger.
Kristaline
 

thanks....if felt good to allow myself that bit of anger....
 

now there is a blog! and nope cant say that i have ever felt the need to ;)
 

hehe....glad you liked.  something different for me....but might try more in the future
 

Ha! I think it's excellent...witty enough to take her down a notch or two...and pardon me for saying os, I know it's about your sis...so no disrepect...but I remembered an earlier write of yours where it was mentioned...but I'm not that fabulous, I wasn't sure so I read down the comments...lol.
The word twat, you'd think it would kill a write, ha, it makes it peeeerfect. Love it. (hope you're feeling better if you need to...i fnot, even better)
 

it's hard to keep a focus on my own life sometimes.....but a bit at a time.  having to revise my ideas of strength....that putting up with those who are not appreciative.....does not mean you are more strong.  it means you are more stupid.  and i can admit to having been stupid.

so thanks....yea, continue to do better.  it's like a part of me waking up, that was always too deep for baby sis to understand.  and just because somebody doesn't get you, doesn't mean you're not making sense!  lol....it's the story of the ugly duckling....and even if i never find any other swans....am still better off without those nasty ducks around! 

i don't know that wasting anger and hate on that sister is productive....but felt good!  you see, i don't ever get to say things like that.

the problem with that sister.....is she has a strange value system, and there is a lack of any original contemplation of "worth."  so she does this thing, where she works to look as wealthy as she can, and then any friends are of a subjugation-type....ones that she can treat however she wants, because they will put up with much just to be around her "wealth."  in other words....she makes sure she has a house with a pool....so she can use that to make people like her.  and same with everything. 

if she had landed poor, living in a mobile home park, for instance......maybe she would have eventually figured out that it helps to respect the lives of others, and friendship isn't something you buy.  but she has found it easier to buy friends. 

and when she forgets....and treats me the same way that she does those friends that she bought......well, it is simply an impossible situation.  and problem is, it would take me a lifetime to break everything apart, into ways to explain to her what she is doing.  and she won't ever get it....even if i wrote ten lifetime's worth.....because there is a stark inability to ever admit to wrong-doing.  she has accepted christianity as a way to call herself perfect.  and she never understood it......but doesn't have to to make it an excuse. 

it's like this.....like a person that sits there asking a therapist for their opinion.....and then only accepts those answers which put them into favorable light.  she can't see both sides of ANY equation.....

we were talking about depression this last month.....and she did this "i'm pretty upbeat" sort of thing....as if that were some sort of proof......and i had to tell her, well all that means is that you act happy to make those around you happy.  that doesn't mean that you yourself are actually happy inside.  all that means is that you like putting on a face and making others happy.  being "up-beat" is not the answer to depression.  in fact, it can be fuel to the fodder of discontent.

and she barely got that......as in, mostly sat there telling herself that i'm crazy and that's all my reasoning is.  and i'm tired.....

i won't be there for her as a sister now.....and it's been hard, nella.....to simply grasp the concept that i have that right to make that decision. 

i could cite a thousand more reasons why she is bad.....but doesn't change the fact that i only needed one.




 

LMAO     Ah Ms. Eileen, you slay me...just slay me. Many, many hugs for you today.