I dont know why all of a sudden I have felt the need to write. I think I will be doing it more often. It makes me feel better and express my feelings.
Anyways, I woke up this morning with an earache...again! My daughter spent the night with Mama last night as I was hoping for company (as per last nights blog) but anyways as ya know, that shit didnt happen. So what did I do? I watched "Superbad", ate a bag of popcorn, had a few beers and went to bed. And woke up feeling like shit! LOL So, I thought I would feel sorry for myself today. Then I decided to watch the movie "One fine day" You know, with George Clooney and Michelle Pfiffer. ANyways, how can you be in a bad mood after watching this movie? It is one of my favorite love movies (besides dirty dancing and Save the Last Dance). Anyways, so I decided I need to get out of my funk. She is a single, working mother and seems happy. You know what? I can be too! I dont need a damn man! My heart learned to love, so I can fall out of love, right? So, I called and my cell will be changed as of next Friday! I have to wait a week. Since so much shit is going on with Laceys dad and all the lawayers and investigators have my cell number, I thought it was best to wait a while. If he cant call me, it will be easier right? Yep, thats what I thought! So step one...check! :)
I need to do more with my daughter. I havent had any energy lately. I think it is because I have been so depressed and miserable. Fuck that! SHe deserves better. I signed her up for ballet classes yesterday at her school. Once this movie is over, and I get dressed, I will be puicking Lacey up so we can buy her leotard! I am so excited. She is so excited. She loves to twirl like a ballerina! And she gets a recital at the end of the year! I cant wait! I wonder if she will remember the steps? Will she go to her recital and actually dance, or just stand there picking her nose? Either way, I will be one proud mommy recording the whiole thing! Gish, I just hope I can afford it. I am struggling now with just daycare, and now I am adding on dance classes? I will make it work! I am learning to make sacrifices. True story: I have bee sick for the past 2 weeks. Thsi week-end Lacey and I went to the grocery store. I only had 20.00 to buy a weeks worth of groceries! I know, but we can do it. ANd I am on a diet, so lettuce is cheap! LOL Well, I had been promising Lacey all week we would get some Dora Gummies! I was hoping she ould forget since I really needed to get some medicine. So, first stop, medicine isle to buy generic nyquil so hopefully I could sleep. $4.99! We got everything else we needed and then Lacey rememebered her Dora Snacks. We went they were $3.79! For damn Dora snacks. I searched and searched fore something to put back. Hell, we only had $20.00 so I didnt have much to choose from. Well, we have to eat right? So, without thinking, down went my medicine so my princess could have her Dora Snacks. She was happy, I silently cried. But you know what? It was worth it. I have the best daughter in the world and if sacrifices have to be made, they will!!!
Anyways, I am over feeling sorry for myself. I am excited to go spend money to get her dance outfit and then go to the grocery store. And guess what? This week I will ahve about $30.00 to spend! Woo-hoo! Yep, things are looking up!