That's right! I'm headed back to CA tonight!! WOO HOO!! Ok this is gonna be kinda a long one, but it's rather important and I would really like it if ya read the whole thing through because this is coming straight from my heart. If ya wanna respond, please do so in here in my blog. Thanks! I'll probably be able to check my mail later today, and I'll probably repost this again, but after tonight, I may not be online for a couple days or so. Who knows anything can happen though. For those of you that I speak with on various instant messengers, I'll probably be on those very rarely. So call my cell 206-679-7462. And don't forget to write!! Some of y'alls owe me some emails anyways! Well, and I owe some of ya some emails too. Now I know a lot of y'alls had heard me do nothing but bitch and bitch and talk shit about Seattle, but I should also say, that there are things that I do like, and some things I will miss. For one thing www.kexp.org!! This is the BEST fucking radio station ANYWHERE hands down! I'm SOOOOOOOO glad that I discovered it while being here. Please check it out. They have different shows every night from country to blues to rockabilly to punk and wrap and world music, and they play anything that's popular to stuff you would NEVER hear EVER on ANY commercial radio station ANYWHERE!!! I'm gonna miss that station very much! Since I've been up here, I've also discovered how much I enjoy doing the whole outdoorsy thing and going hiking and shit like that. I just wish I could have done it more. I plan on not missing out on that anymore in the future when I'm back in CA. I'm also gonna miss driving outta town and seeing the surrounding areas, and that's something else that I didn't do nearly enough, and also plan on doing more stuff like that when I get back to CA. Travelling and road tripping has become very important and dear to me. I'm also gonna miss hanging out at Cafe Minnies all the time a couple years ago when they had their old crew. Kristin, Fara, Ricky, Satci, Jim, Rebekka, and a few others. If ya go there ever, it's on 1st and Denny, get the Tiajana veggie burger!!!! MMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmm!! In the nearly four years that I have been up here, I've gone through a lot of personal changes that some of ya folks back in Sacto may, or may not for that matter, notice. When I first came up here, I had a hard time going out. Hell I had a hard time WANTING to go out. So it was difficult for me at first to make any friends. I just wasn't into the bar thing anymore or the clubs or even live shows. I had stopped drinking all together, and that dramatically reduced my tolerance for going out. I had become very reserved and quite the stuffy grumpy bastard. I had isolated myself, and basically became a hermit. I suffered through a very severe depression for a couple years here, BUT!, I also learned to recognize it, acknowledge it, and I finally came to terms with that part of my being. As soon as I was able to do that, a lot of my anxieties and worries about certain things didn't seem so bad anymore. So in this time here, while being a hermit, I've learned to be more comfortable with myself and have learned a lot about who I really am and what I want and what I enjoy out of life. I still have a long way to go in many ways and in many aspects of my life, but I'm a lot better off mentally now than I was back in CA. And ironically, I have Seattle to thank for that. Now of course, there are gonna be some people I'm gonna miss very much. Not all of them are here on myspace, but I still need to give them a shout out anyways. Fara... I miss ya a bunch and wish we coulda hanged out more outside of Minnies. You were always so much fun to be around, and ya made me smile and feel good about myself. And yer a fucking hotty too! Jim, thanks for all the good service and convos down there at Minnies too. Call me if yer ever in CA. Rebekka... All smiles all the time. Yer just so wonderful to be around and I wish we coulda hanged out a lot more too. April... Yer such a sweetheart and I think yer were my first real friend up here. You were the first one that gave me a chance. You were still friendly to me when I first met ya and was all grumpy and shit all the time. And OH MY GOD!! THAT ASS!! DEM HIPS!! Staci... You were the first person that invited to me a private party, and that was hella cool. Thank you for being so friendly and making me feel welcome here. Ricky! He's back home in Iowa or some place like that or something, but man he was fucking FUNNIER than shit! And he hooked me up with SO much food at Minnies all the time! Thanks dude! Marci... I hope ya can find the man that yer looking for to fill in those gaps in your life. And NO people I'm not talking about the usual gaps that pervy Jimbo's always talking about! In the meantime though, remember August of '03? YEAH! Let's do that again sometime!! Dianna... Always a fucking riot to talk with on the phone. Drama drama drama, but it was so much fun talking with ya all those late nights. You definitely have to hit me up when ya get down to the Bay Area hun! My crew at the Crypt.. You guys already know how I feel cause I left ya that long note on my last night of work there. Thanks for letting me work with y'alls. Yer definitely the best group of folks I've ever worked with. Lisa... Oh my god what a sweetheart. And ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!! THAT SKIN!! No words can define how fucking hot I think you are! Listen people, I don't know what the hell is the problem with guys out there in this world, but for some reason, this girl is having a hard time finding a dude that will hang with her. DO NOT LET HER GO EASILY!!! I can only fucking DREAM of having a girlfriend as fucking HOT and SWEET and NICE as she is. I wish we coulda hanged out more and gotten to know each other better. Melissa... You're a great friend and it's regretful that we couldn't hang out more. Your husband truly is a lucky guy to have such a hot babe of a wife. Yer so genuinely friendly and you're so open minded and I love that about you! To the kids down there in T-town Tacoma!! Jamey and James. Man You guys just fucking ROCK and I'm so sorry that we were only able to hang out that one time. You guys better keep in touch god damn it! Misha... I just met you on here a few days ago, but yer really cool and I wish that I coulda met ya earlier and been able to get to know ya and spend some time with ya. I think you and I coulda had some fun on some road trips here and there. I know that you appreciate that as much as I do. When ya get to CA sometime, let's go to the Winchester Mystery House!! Keith... I use to work with this guy at R&R until we were both canned. He's helped me out in so many ways that I can't even begin to explain. Hey folks, Jimbo MIGHT be comeing back to town in the not too distant future if Keith gets his store open. It'll be the best fucking porno store this town has seen!! So keep yer eyes peeled! Jason... My room mate and also a previous co-worker. That dude has fucking put up with so much of my shit and has also helped me A LOT with a lot of shit. I can't believe how much BS I've put him through and he STILL fucking helped me out! And last, but most certainly not least, my friend Kristin. I don't even know where to begin. When I first encountered her she was working at Cafe Minnies, and I thought she was just some snobby gothy cunt fucking bitch! Boy was I fucking WRONG!!! She truly is the biggest fucking god damn sweetheart in the whole wide world. When I first realized how fucking cool she was, I had passed around a story from my past about some anal sex I had with a girl many years ago ( the story is in my blog! Go check it out! True Anal Stories). Well I passed it around to the crew at Minnies, and everyone just kinda had a shocked look on their face, and could barely muster up a simple chuckle for my funny story. Well not Kristin! She fucking busted out laughing and cracking up and couldn't stop. It was the funniest and cutest thing ever. And that's when I knew she was cool. So after that we started talking and it turned out that we had some things in common and things we could really relate to. Then we started hanging out all the time and going for some drives and going to some hella cool places. I've had the best times with her, and my fondest memories are going to be of her and I hanging out and bumming money and smokes from each other and going on day trips. We've been to some really cool places together hun and I'm gonna miss having you around for that. Someday you HAVE to come to CA and we can go do that stuff again but down there! I love ya hun and I'm going to miss you very very much. Well as much as I hate being here, and as much as I'm looking forward to being back in CA again, I am gonna miss some things about Seattle, and I am gonna take some good things away from this experience. Take care and have fun everyone! Peace out!