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Brittney Gardiner


Last Updated: 9/13/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 23
Sign: Sagittarius

City: around
State: UTAH
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/4/2006

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R♥CKY (2)
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sara jean s.. (2)
jess maxine. (2)
With a kiss.. (2)
September 9, 2006 - Saturday 

Current mood:  touched
Category: Life
so i was just going through some files on my computer

and i ran into this.

i wrote it last september;

so its quite old.

its nothing at all spectacular

but the content is important to me.




I sat and stared; the wind blew my hair to my face.
There it sat. The headstone read his name.
WWII soldier.
Husband. Father. Grandpa.
The date read 80 years old today.
If he were still here.
As I sat staring,
Thats when I felt it
A deep breathe in.
I put on my sunglasses.
Then came the rush.
The emotions were strong.
Slow heart beat.
Boom. Boom. Boom.
Another deep breathe.
I feel it.
That one little annoyance.
Creeping into the corner of my eye.
That one little annoyance.
Making me feel weak.
I look back down at the headstone.
I was so young when you were taken.
My eyes swell.
I feel weak.
I feel hurt.
Yes, hurt.
The feeling that I hide the most.
I feel ashamed.
I try to hide it but its too late.
The swelling up inside.
He is not here anymore.
I miss him.
Admittance.
I miss him.
Slowly one single moist drop slides down my cheek.
Only to be followed by more chasing after it.
And for that instance there was relief
But with relief the shame.
I let it go.
I let myself go.
I gave in to the power of emotion.
And with each tear it would consume me.
my grandpa was an amazing man.

Rest In Peace Grandpa Dean

I love you and miss you greatly.
Currently listening:
The Covers Record
By Cat Power
Release date: 21 March, 2000
7:07 AM
 
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R♥CKY

 
This is so sad...I miss you so much Britt!

I'm having a tough time right now and if you get a chance right me a little poem.

Thanks ♥
 
Posted by R♥CKY on August 29, 2006 - Tuesday - 2:25 AM
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☮♡♫ Giggles ♫♡☮
Angela Kaye

 
Wow..That's way sad. I like it though..So...I frigen miss you Britt!! Like no other. haha. We need to hang out.
 
Posted by ☮♡♫ Giggles ♫♡☮ on August 29, 2006 - Tuesday - 2:44 AM
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hm.
it reminds me of my great grandpa.
he died a month before christmas.
this upsets me.

i'm sorry.
 
Posted by on August 29, 2006 - Tuesday - 2:57 AM
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sara jean sky™

 
wow this is really good
your poems are so beautiful
i wish i was as good as you
and im very sorry
my grandpa passed away
when i was six years old
i dont remember much :/
if you ever need someone
to talk to ill be here to help
the best i can
<3sky.
 
Posted by sara jean sky™ on August 29, 2006 - Tuesday - 3:24 AM
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jess maxine.

 
saddly, i can relate. britt, you're such an a wonderful writer. i am glad that i get the chance to read slash jump into your mind.
 
Posted by jess maxine. on August 29, 2006 - Tuesday - 8:44 AM
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With a kiss, he stole my heart.

 
It's not weak to miss someone. It's not weak to cry. Your amazing and your gorgeous, don't ever forget it.
 
Posted by With a kiss, he stole my heart. on August 30, 2006 - Wednesday - 6:51 PM
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