Do you ever have one of those days, I mean just one of those "you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders days and the world just crapped on your head while it was standing on your shoulders" kinda days?  Well that's what today was for me.  I just feel the pressure of changes at church, my youngest starting kindergarten, my daughter not here to start school.  I mean it just seems like it all hit me at once, yeah all of you reading this probably have felt like this and have had me say to you "turn it over to Jesus and remember that He is there to carry you."  Well, I know that he is there I guess that it just take a little time for my human heart to realize and feel the love of Christ.  I am always asking "where did you see Christ today?"  For me today, I do not feel like I saw Christ, from the crap of the world in my eyes.  And I have to say that makes for a pretty crummy day.  So this is a real blog for me, this is how I feel today, raw and pissed off at the world and how Satan is treating me!  I am mad and I am not going to take it.  My prayer right now is that Christ would show me the plan he has for me, turn this pain and badness into good, turn my heart, and make me glad.  Read it and laugh if you want, read it and relate, read it and comment, but the only thing that I ask is that afterwards you would pray, not just for me but also for you, for the times that you have these days that Jesus would lift you up and make you glad. 

Remember, crack kills

Alan

(that's for you zak)