a little venting here, ha things are good with me and vicki and what not, just wandering out there has anyone around here ever felt like a damn blacksheep in your family? I have kinda felt like that for while now up here, yeah they're my family and what not but you ever get the feeling like you can never do good enough no matter what you do to try to help out its never good enough they always want more, and kinda single you out and shit ya know. Just get the feeling when a couple of people are together they are just talking about you and shit, lol its kinda obvious when you go out there and they suddenly get quiet lol. all i know is yeah things are rough right now, but my girl believes in me.

the thing is i dont understand how its my fault, when you bring in well over 3000 a month and cant keep your spendings in check, then you run out of money within a week of getting your money and its my damn fault? how is that my fault? me and vicki take care of our own things. then you have other people who borrow money from you, i never ask for money, you usually fight to get me to take it when you offer it. but its always my fault when it comes down to it. why dont you do this? why havent you done this? i get tired of hearing the same thing everytime you run out of money. i have a questing for you then, why cant you keep your bills in check? lol once again its not my damn fault you dont know how to manage your f'n budget.

anyways i know how i wanna live my life and it wont be soon we will be getting on the right track of things. then all these f'n people runnin they're mouths and talking about things they have no idea about can maybe shut the f up and worry about there own problems for a change. sorry to vent people i just get frustrated about things up here ha. its alot of people here that just run there mouths about things they have know clue about. ha well hope you people have a good one out there, hit me up see ya around.

-sean