so "when it rains it poors" goes the old saying and boy its true its been a blah month this last one i met an amazing guy unnamed he was so great and caring and different oh and sexy as fucking hell.... i get a text saying "im seeing someone else dude... i am sorry" wtf is all i could think how manly of him right? to tell you the truth he called tonight and i fing miss him so much i would take him back in a second!! im back here in cali right now to visit with my grandma she was great on tuesday now she lays there barly alive i love her so much more then almost ne thing in the world and for me to see her like this is hard she looks like she is in alot of pain but they all tell me shes not... i dunno lifes funny sometimes it gives and sometimes it pulls the rug right from under you but its ok and she is one with god so she is ok ill just keep everything in my prayers