I'm not writing this for pity, so please do not make any replies saying, you're a great guy; you deserve to be hired; they're stupid not to take you; God works in mysterious ways; etc because I just want to get the thoughts that I have out.  In fact, I'm going to turn comments off.

So, I must just be unhireable...  I don't know what I'm doing wrong, or what I need to change, but I'm hitting rock bottom.

I had one place that I was really loving because of the people, the work, the perks and it would be perfect for Donna and I to be able to "start over", but they never called me last night.  Wait, they did call me to find out who my references were at 4:00 last night, and told me that she was going to call me back, but she never did. I was heartbroken last night.  I really wanted this position.

I woke up this morning literally to a phone call from one of the Wells Fargo areas that I had a good interview with, to tell me that I wasn't what they were looking for.  Not only that, but another area that they know is a good "foot in" wasn't interested in me as well.

I get shot down so much with my resume, when I actually have a chance to talk to people whether it's on the phone or in person, I am able to really impress them.  Not anymore it seems.  Maybe I'm just getting too desparate and it's really starting to show.  I'm sorry, but I need work.  I need money.  I need to support for my family, and I won't be able to do that for $8/hr flipping burgers.  I have a fucking college education, and I can't find a fucking job.  Why did I go to college anyway!?  It was a waste of money and a waste of time because all people want is experience.

No one is willing to train anymore.  And if they say that they are willing to train, they really mean, they are willing for you to figure it out yourself for a couple of fucking months before you completely screw yourself over because you don't know what the fuck you are doing, or they just want to spend the time yelling at you because you don't know what you're doing, as if you were suppose to learn by fucking osmosis.

I understand that people like to help, but can you support your family on a job at Target?  No?  Then how the fuck am I?  Ok, it's a small source of income, and something is better than nothing, I get it, but if I spend 40+ fucking hours working at a place where I will NEVER make more than $10/hr, then how the fuck am I going to find the time to find or to interview for the jobs that I CAN get more than $10/hr. for?!

Times are tough... I know that, hell I'm living that, but you can't tell me that no one is hiring.  Either that, or that there are people that are more talented than me that are out there.  You know who's getting the fucking jobs?  The fucking people who are too chicken shit to really stand by their company.  I worked on a sinking ship before and that was to prove that I am a company man.  I will stand by the person that I will work for UNTIL THE END.  You know why?  Because that company actually invested time and money into me. They wanted to not only succeed, but to see their people succeed at well.  I was there until I was asked to leave, and you know what I did, I reapplied at that same place not two weeks afterward.  Ultimately it ended to the demise of the company, but I never gave up on them.  I can do that for any company I work for.  Hell, I still buy primarily only General Mills products, you know why?  BECAUSE I AM A STUPID LOYAL FUCKING PERSON THAT UNDERSTANDS TO APPRECIATE THE FUCKING PEOPLE THAT HAVE GOT YOU A FUCKING JOB AND ALLOWED YOU TO KEEP IT. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS THE PROBLEM WITH THE STAFFING AGENCIES IN FUCKING TOWN WHEN THEY GET PISSED OFF BECAUSE THEY HEARD THAT I GOT A JOB THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE.  OH.... FUCKING REALLY?!  YOU JUST WANTED ME TO WAIT FOR YOU WHILE YOU KEEP SAYING, "really, there's nothing available for you." BULL FUCKING SHIT YOU STUPID CUNTS!!!

IF you actually did your fucking jobs, you would do a number of things:

1) You would actually email me, or contact me in some fucking way.  Right now I need to send out a mass email to the people who are looking for work for me, because if I don't, I would NEVER hear from them.  Why is this my responsibility?!  You're the one getting fucking paid to find me a job! I know it's not by me, but you have to be making a good dollar off of my ass.  I've worked on the other side of things with temp agencies.  I may be getting $14/hr, but you're charging the company $22.  Really!?  What is that extra $8/hr. for?  What are you really supply to me once you find the job, and how hard was it really to find that position?  The companies have to come to you?!  How fucking easy is it to be a temp agent?  No wonder why there is so many in town!  BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS HOW TO FUCKING ACTIVELY LOOK FOR A JOB FOR THEIR FUCKING CLIENTS!!!!

And the rest I forgot.  I was in the heat of the moment, and just writing what came out and I had at least 3 things, but now I can't remember them.  I had to get Brody some food.

Anyway.  I just filled out an application for Wal-mart.  Turns out I'm not superviser material for them.  I'm going to apply to Target now.  What has my life come to?