It hasnt been too long since you've gone home to the lord,but the paper from the funeral is yellow and faded like it has been years since you left us behind. Your memory follows me like a shadow in the dark,stuck in a corner just wating to pop out at me.Not a day goes by where i dont think of you,i keep your smile fondly in my heart,that is where you lay peacefully,where i can always keep you close to me.

And i miss you,sometimes i still wonder why it had to be you,how can someone be allowd to go through so much pain and so much fighting just to be taken away in the end. dont think ill ever understand that. but i hope your happy being up in the clouds,i hope that there is no more pain. The holidays are coming around again,this will be the second year without you here,but it hasnt gotten any easier trying to find a way to let you go. Your birthday is also right around the corner,how i miss making a big fuss over you,you never wanted us to make a big deal out of it,but you were always a big deal to us. And you were a rock,big and strong and solid,you always kept everyone together.

I just wanted to tell you that i love you, wanted to wish you happy holidays and a happy birthday. I miss you grandpa, and i hope that you are looking down on me with a smile on your face,the same smile that ill never forget,that same smile that i keep fondly in my heart until the day that we meet again.