Don't get me wrong, I love being home with the kids and as lucky as I am to have such a wonderful family I know I shouldn't complain but I am a bit sad today.  I miss Cincinnati and my friends there.  The holidays are here and now is my favorite time to work for Crabtree.  The store is so beautiful and how I do love to watch stupid people fight over Vera bags!  The best part was criticizing bad fashion and... well anyone was fair game with Sarah Beth and the girls. (I already know I am a shallow bitch.)  When things got stressful at work we would laugh it off with Rudolf sayings and Sarah Beth and Kelly would sing the Happy Elf song.  How I hated that song but now I miss it.  Is it wrong to miss being just Sarah Noel and not Mommy?  I guess it is more than just the holidays, I am battling the post twin hormones and struggling to adjust to my new body image.  I miss my designer clothes and my red shoes.  I miss feeling pretty and still being able to turn a head every now and then, even with a mini me at my side.  Now I feel like my husband doesn't even notice me.  I am not saying that we are having marriage problems.  I am saying that his day is filled with work, school, 3 kids, and helping out in the house.  My day is spent chasing after Ella, caring for the twins, and doing housework with no make up, my hair pulled back, in baby vomit covered pj's, and chances are I did not get time for a shower.  Basically, we are parents.  Gee, I just got puked on again.  Fun times.  Fun times.