This has been a long...and depressing week. Sheena is in jail now. The whole session in court just made me so mad. Her lawyer dug into my personal life, and was pointing out the fact that I may have liked Sheena at one time or another. He was saying that since she never expressed interest in going out with me, that I wanted her to go to jail, I had a motive in wanting her to go to prison. I don't think she should actually go to prison, I'd much rather prefer her in a psychiatric ward. She needs help, and I don't think prison is going to give it to her. Regardless, the judge said that his allegations had nothing to do with the actual trial, and ended up suspending the lawyer for misconduct.

When I went to visit Sheena, she told me that she was depressed. She said the she didn't remember killing the man, and that she had blacked out as everything happened. She said she woke up next to the dead man with her clothes off. The last thing she remembered was going to meet someone who could give her a job and set her up with a place...needless to say, that never happened. It was awkward talking to her, but I saw her and how much pain she was in. She told me that she was sorry if she killed him, and we parted ways.

It's interesting how these things just happen somtimes. With Sheena in jail, I think it was more weird for me to think about how I even got to this point. I'm expecting to go home tonight for the first time in three weeks, and yet, still, I don't feel like this is over yet. I don't feel like Sheena really did it. Now, I'm no detective, but just the way she talked about it was really heartfelt and sincere. She even apologized to the family...which is not the best way to avoid a slap in the face which she ended up getting. I'm just really worried about her in prison. With a huge life sentence ahead of her, I wonder how she's going to adjust.