What shall I proclaim in the name of the Lord? What shall I do for the glory of the Lord? What can I do in the presence of the Lord that would please him so?Tired of technical questions. Tired of mediocrity. I am tired of being displaced. I have travled so much in these past few years. I have wondered am I running from something, or am I running towords something? I wonder what missteps have I made? But these questions I ponder have left me with little light?

Direction is something I need everyday. Direction from the Holy Spirit. Is there something I'm missing? Did I lose track of God's plan? I am struggling everyday, trying to keep my heart in God's hands. I am dedicated, I am in Love with God more than life itself. Why do I struggle so much? A pastor once offered a noble response, "that when we struggle we are fighting against the enemy, without that stuggle the enemy doesn't bother with us because are no danger to him." I am not so arrogant to believe that we are the one's fighting. No, it is the Holy Spirit that fights for us. Do we struggle yes, does it come from the enemy in the form of the flesh yes? These are all scripture based. But do not fight on our own.

I know I made the right decision to leave Texas. The world really was crashing down on all of us. I know to many people would say that I was running from issues. Truth is I was running toward some issues. I am living in North Carolina with my mother. I can't say how much of a struggle it is to hold back what I have been told to speak. But I know that it just isn't the time yet. I know what I was told. What was spoken over me. To be honest I didn't want it to be true. I wanted to stay in Texas and fight to get my drivers license, to help my family, and even make a go at finding a better job. I was obeying God when he spoke stay with Sylvan, I hold to that everyday. However, I do now understand why. God was preparing a way that was beyond anyone's understanding. It took me through a loop. I admit change isn't that hard for me, it is just new environments that I find difficult to accept.

I have recognized that these are tough times. It isn't going to get easier. With the G 20 summit comming up, with world leaders are beginning to discuss in greater detail about a one world currancy. Or enconomy is wavering, our beliefs becoming irratic, and the world as we know it will come to an end. We all knew this was going to happen, yet no one knows the time or date at which such things will occur. Honestly, I had hoped it would have come earlier. I miss home, my Father God. So much is happening and it is difficult to keep up. I find myself staring at the t.v hoping God would answer my plea.

Father God,

Let us come back to you. Help us to see the truth and let it set us free. Call to our hearts once again to cry out for the lost and dying world. Though some may take it as religion rather than a disciplship. Father hear our cries. I may never see the day I marry, but Father God you are my first love. I will hold that in my heart forever.

Cry out once more, cry out for God to heal our land, to set the captives free once more. Cry out for deliverance, for redemption, and salvation. There is a world crying out for a savior and yet are being lead astray. Cry out as though your life depended on it. Cry out! Forgive us of our sins, ingnite the fire that has so turned to a hot amber. Inginte our passion to serve only you and not ourselves Father God. We turn back, we plead for your mercy and grace. Hear our hearts. THE CHURCH NEEDS TO GET WITH IT! LEAVE THE WAYS OF THE WORLD ALONE AND GET BACK TO THE TRUTH. IT WILL SET YOU FREE.

Loretta Angela