I just watched a movie, rewatched actually, "The Science of Sleep."  I think I really like it.  I love any human emotion study type media.  This one was cool because it was a different sort of love story.  I like love stories that are honest about the whole thing.  That don't make it out to be a walk in a rose garden.  I like stories that make things out to be these weird gray things that they are.  It's never been my experience that I have found myself in an awkward circumstance, only to meet the girl of my dreams and fall madly in love.  That's never happened to me, I'm still single, I can't really relate.  So, if you like that type of movie, watch it.

So, I'm meeting her on Sunday.  Nothing big of course, just hanging out in the farmer's market.  She texted me this week saying that she was sick, asking how my week was going.  I texted back.  Today, I texted something to the effect of "somehow being just friends just makes me want you more.  hope you feel better, have a good weekend."  ...  I can't help it.  I think I get bored / restless with a situation.  I mean, if something's not really they way I want it, I don't gain anything by leaving it be.  What's the risk really, it's better than doing nothing.  Anyway, she messages me back.  I guess we'll hang out Sunday morning.  No big deal, right, not like she's my soul mate or anything.  It's just that she's a few feet on the wrong side of "just friends."  I know I'm going to get myself in touble here, maybe a little bit, maybe a lot, but one way or another...  It's funny, I had even rehearsed it to myself, "hmmm, I don't really want to go to the farmer's market.  I'll pass."  but instead it comes out as "sure. what time?"  ...  Silly me.  I like to play dangerous games I suppose.