this is a kind of a wird blog, well not really it's more like a story so it's called "He's Here" and it's written from a fictional character named Jayla's point of view.........oh, my God he's here i'm here and we shouldn't be doing this right now, last monday i went out with Alex and he pissed me the fuck off we were out at the movies in Sandhill's and he was acting a stright fool i told him i hated when he acted childish but he doesn't care i wish i wasn't falling for him like i am now, and it's kinda funny how we tell each other we love each other and have only been goin out for about 4 weeks close to a month and i don't love him but i just say it back so he won't get mad, wait till i tell sandra about this she knows that i go with alex but she doesn't know his flaws, and i was in a bad position to begin with cuz a sertian someone, (keith) who i was with and wasn't with, see we went out for about a year, he was my first and it was good was good until we broke up but nither of us got in a relationship for a while and we started "seeing" each (fuckin) again after about 2 weeks and i became very emotionally attached to him, and so we love each other but he just didn't want to communicate like he should have so i decided to go and test the waters and thats when i found alex, don't get me wrong he is cute and can eat the hell out of some pussy which unlike a lot of these niggas offerd to do so that was a plus right from the start, you see keith was willing to eat but only after i refused to give him head unless i got some so he came to his sinces eventually and learned how to do it right and it started to turn him on so hell that was fine with me as long as he didn't stop and after i met alex he know that i wasn't gonna cheat so he did the right thing a backed off so, surprisingly i didn't have to force him to do it, after the first two weeks of "dating" alex i let him have it mainly cuz i was tired of waiting it had been too long and i was ready to see what he had goin for him it and it's good he knows what he's doing and i guess the fact that he offerd to eat me out kinda got me thinking he could eat some pussy like a pro but it wasn't all that though to tell the truth he ain't much better than keith but at the time i was determined to stay around see where this thing could go, then i got to know him, and i didn't know how childish a 17 year old can be he continues to get on my nerves so after a while i get tired if talking with him on the phone, so much that i end up talking to keith on the phone more than i do alex and keith used to ask me all the time why i was talking to him more than i talked to alex and i just told him stright up, i didn't feel like talking to alex, so earlier today i was getting ready for the game tonight and i got a call from keith telling me he was in town (keith is 18 and a freshman at Clemson) for the weekend, to tell the truth i really didn't care that much so i just brushed it off, then after the game i came home and got another call from keith telling me to look out the window and i recognized his car right off the bat then saw him walking up my drive way i got nervous cuz my momz was still over her man's how and most likely wouldn't be home for another hour from what she told me but know he she could show up at any minute, i hung up the phone and opend the door and we could talk so i walked him around behind my house so if my mom rolled up i could just hop in my window real quick and not get cought so we start talking and well the fack that i had on some cuchie cutters didn't help matters and the fact that keith was lookin fine as every didn't help either and well i though he came for some sex and so i had to let him know i wasn't gonna cheat on alex, and he said he understood then..he huged me i closed my eyes and was in heaven it had been so long since he last held me like that and i couldn't help my self the next thing i know his lips thouch mine and now i'm here and i don't know what to feel, should i feel bad for kissing someone besides my boyfriend, or is this justified by the simple fact that i miss keith, he misses me and i need this for me, right now all i can think about is keith and he kisses make me melt, that Cassie song is runnin through my head "love it when you kiss me, love it when our lips meet, you intoxicate me, i barely can breathe i love when you kiss me" damn this feels so right but it's wrong, i shouldn't be lovin this........wow my first stoy i guess it's ok for my first "fictional" story but what ever i got bored and this was the only thing i could think about writing hope you enjoyed